You say you know me
but you only know a part of me

I tend to act diffrently
depending on how you treat me

Technically
it is all just me

But you wouldn't know that
because you don't know me

I will pay you a penny
to hear my thoughts
listen to all my fears
the pain people have brought
but one wise soul told me
a tidbit I have yet to forgot
he said if you don't care about yourself
than why do you expect others give you a second thought?

You hurt me
but I don't wanna hurt you
you pushed me down
while I was trying to help you up
you broke me
when all I was trying to do was put you back together
I learned something about people
when you make it to the top of the hill and you try to help them up
all they want to is push you down
but I will still try to help
because one day they will realize
by pushing me down
they are only hurting themselves

There are two types of people we all need
Someone to make us smile
And somone to remind us to cry

Pick me like a flower
Like there was an entire field of daisies and for some reason you just picked me
In no way am I the most beautiful
But you choose me first
And chose me only

Chose me like a crayon
When your a toddler drawing a picture for mommy
And you just know the sky has to be that shade of......green
In no way am I perfect for you
But you don’t care
And you choose me anyway

Fight for me like I’m favorite food place
And your dad just asked you where you wanted to eat
And they want pizza but you are in love with the Chinese spot right down the street
I’m not cheapest
But I’m worth it

So pick me
Cause you don’t mind mediocre daisies
green skies
Or Chinese food that you know you don’t need

I wish somoeone could see me

for me

in real life

I wish someone

would finally notice

that im never


actually



happy

When you watch someone cry
and you feel so bad you cant speak

When you see the sunset
and fell as if you did something amazing by surviving one more day

That feeling
when you see the person who loves you

When you listening to a song
and the piano makes you wanna cry

Have you ever stared at a blank page
wondering about what it will be
how you can change  it
to make something amazing
all it's possibility
to be great
and how it can change things
i think that is how God looks at me

Pressure flooding on top of me
from all directions
from my family
my friends
from everyon who has ever meant anything to me
All telling me
what i should be
I constantly say I don't care what they think
I wish I wasnt lying
and if you know me I'm always trying to please
to be who they want me to be
I want to be free
free from stereotypes
free from what people want me to be
please let me be free

Why pretend you don't know me
Why pretend at all
You saved more than my life
You know it's true
You gave me me back
Showed me love to
Stayed with me  no matter what I do
Kept me safe with you
Showed me another page
Told me life isn't a game
Made sure I stay
You made me happy
For as long as it last
Why pretend?
You know you saved me

I am a liar
as simple as that
I know you don't see many people
stating their problems as a fact
but I am

I am judgemental
I judge everyone
on everything
I know I'm not the only one judging
but right now I am the only one admitting

I'm a manipulator
I change things to my will
so that people will believe everything I think

I'm not perfect
and neither are you
so I suggest you let it out
so you can make you a better you

You never told me
and i shouldnt be upset because i never told you anything either

You dont know me
so at this point im tired of you pretending you do

You are keeping me safe
but you havent protected me from anything
all you are doing is protecting yourself
from what i will think
when you tell me serious things

and by serious things
i do not mean the people you are dating
or what you like on a womans body

I mean what keeps you up at night
I mean what keeps you going
and what makes you wanna stop
I mean the stuff you havent told anyone

but the thing that hurts me the most
is that instead of telling the person you have known and has 'protected' since we where half our afe
instead of telling me

you tell a girl you just met
One of my friends

and she told me
even after you told her not to

cause you are protecting me
and now you are laying on the floor hurting

but i can bet i am hurting more than you
because your pain is physical

but i am going through mental abuse

You don't understand me
and i will make sure you never do

so realize you cant protect me anymore

you cant protect me from you

When I was young i use to love puzzles
when i say love i mean LOVE
like I would stay up late just to see what pictures I could put together
I would pull one out and stare at the pieces for hours
wonder what beauty would come out of them
and you see I never really finished them though
either to many pieces would go missing
or I would just lose interest
I was only a kid
you couldn't actually expect me to stick with it
short attention spane
but in the event that i actually finished one
my parents use to try to get me to glue them together
so i could always see the picture i completed
but glue was never
an option for me
because why make the beauty concrete
when I can break the puzzle and do it again
when i got older puzzles started to lose their appeal
I no longer felt I needed to put the pieces together in a puzzle
because I noticed something
I noticed that everyone around me was a puzzle
that the girl who sat in the back of my class needed to be put together
and that maybe
I could help her find her missing pieces
that maybe
I could bring the beauty out of her
so I would stay up hours
upon hours
into the night and early morning
just to try and figure out how to fix all the pieces together
how to transform her
into something beautiful
not realizing the beauty of a scattered puzzle
my need to heal people
over took me
to the point that I was so selfless I almost died
I wasn't eating and yet no one notice  me
you see heres the thing
about puzzles
they never take the time to put you together
you sit there for hours
and have nothing to show but tired fingers
and a tired mind
you don't even have to lie
because puzzles never ask if your fine
I had an obession with puzzles
but I never took the time to see the one in the mirror
I was missing a piece
and that missing piece was me
and when I started finding myself
I ending up slipping up
and breaking
never took the time to secure my findings
because why glue when you can just break yourself again?
I was obsessed with puzzles
until I became one

What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
What would you do with no strings attachted
What would you do if you new no one would care
what you do if no one was thier
Who would you be  if you knew nobody would judge you?
Who would you be with no strings attachted
Who would you beif you new no one would care
Who would you be if no one was thier

Welcome to the new age
-Imagine Dragons

If you want a rainbow
you have to put up with the storm

I want to text him
So bad
It's as if I'm going through rehab
Addicted to the touch of his skin
And the sting of his words
But I won't
I can't
For you

i don't know what it is
But you make me feel like I can do better than this
Like the person I pretend to be
Could actually be me

You remind me of her
So much it hurts to talk to you
Or To look at you for to long
Because she is at the edge of everything you do
It seems as if she is behind everything you say
But more than that

You  are more than just her memory
You make me happy
Something I said I would never be
I Didn't know I could smile without her
And it's been so long since I truely have

I figured out why you are so special
I discovered what you can do
But I'm not going to tell you because if you don't believe it for yourself
You will never see it

I hope one day somone makes you as happy
As you make me
Because your changing my world
And I hope one day somone can change yours

Dont get upset you dont know the real me
I dont know her either

I'm really sad right now
But I have no reason to be

Im really anxious right now
And I have no reason to be

Im really craving her right now
And I have no reason to be

I'm alive right now
And I have no reason to be

You gave me a reason to live

I hate you for stealing my only escape from my life

Have you ever wanted to know what you will be
have you ever wanted to see what God was planning
in due time He says
But I wanted it right then so
I  'put myself out there'
as some would say
I did things I'm ashamed of to this day
just to see if it was me
It wasn't reality
or it didn't seem
it was like watching a movie
a play back
one scene of someone else's life
not me
and when I woke up
out of my trance
I wished I was dead
became depressed
so I put on a face
of laughter and smiles
so people can see
but I still remember things
so I say to you
you people who are reading
Whatever you do make sure
you  mean it

I'm slipping
The hold I had on reality is failing me
I guess it was always faulty
No one sees me crying
But I'm dieing
The game of life I'm losing
And no one is here to help me
I'm drowning
Can you teach me how to breathe
I'm slipping
Back to who I have been running
From

Days on repeat
the people I see
The songs I sing
The fake smiles people give when they see me
Years on repeat
Birthdays come and go
X's on a calendar
tics and docs from a clock
Then he came along
He changed my view
Opened a door to something new
With new songs
and things to do
Those X's on my calendar
Mark all the fun days I have had with you
Then my fairy tale came to and end
We a group of kids decided to drive
while texting their friends
and now my life is on repeat again.

Respect me
because I am the daughter of a King
respect me
because I have true beauty
respect me
because I am amazing
respect me because I am respect-worthy

I feel like a roller coaster
I go through all of these ups and downs
and I always end up where i started from

I don't **** with no rumours
I know your the truth
Trusted everything you told me
Believe it all to be true
I ain't me without you
And that **** ain't nothing new
So i don't **** with know rumours
Won't believe what they say about you

Everyone wants a place of safety
a place where they can be who they want to be
with out judgement or anything
well poetry is my safety

I feel like the sand
and everyday I lose more of myself to the ocean

When did I stop trying to save myself

I
Just
Cant

I cant live another day
with everyone looking at me

like im the savior

when i cant even save my self

they always said she was different
you never denied she was strange.
she come asking for help,
but to you it was all just a game.

she came to school,
hurting the most by far
. but instead of crying,
she held up her heavy heart.
and you said you didn't know about her scars

she was never the same,
after that day.
when she showed you her bruises and you laughed anyway.
you said she was weird,
you used to call her smart.
you claim some friends just drift apart.

she came to school,
hurting the most by far
. but instead of crying,
she held up her heavy heart.
and you said you didn't know about her scars

She was hurting
but you didn't seem to care
she called out
but you were never there
you didn't love her
when all she needed was a friend

She came to school
hurting the most by far
but instead of crying
she held up her Heavy heart
and you said you didn't know about her scars

Man is taking an experiment with a frog
He tells the frog jump frog
He jumps 10 inches

He cuts off one leg
jump frog
He jump 5 inches

He cuts of a leg
jump frog
He jumps  3 inches

He cuts off a leg
jump frog
Frog jumps 2 inches

He cuts off the last leg
jump frog
The frog doesn't move

He concludes when you cut of all of a frogs legs he goes death

I wish I could just go out onto the street
scream all my secrets to the world
and have at least on person
ask if i needed help

My secrets eat at my soul
at my gut

screaming
ringing in my ears
they want to see the world

and yet I don't want the world to see them

My secrets
I hold them close
and yet the want to go far

My secrets
I don't want anyone to know
and yet people i love always find out

My secrets
I don't want to let them out

My secrets

My secrets