Sonder,
I wonder,
Of all the other people around me,
are their worlds as mine are to me,
Ups and downs, smiles and frowns,
I wonder,
Do they ponder things as I do?

I met a wise man, named Mister Hank
I went to his store, because I had  no money in the bank
But a broken laptop to sell, and an empty stomach

The door was locked, but he let me in still
He said "Sit down son, talk if you will
Because you look like you've got some troubles"
I sat down across from him, and felt my stubble
And then I felt my stomach rumble
Looking right down at my shoes

He said "When I talk young man, I want you to look me in the eye
And I figured he thought what I was saying was a lie
When I was trying to talk about my broken laptop

But I couldn't have been any more wrong,
He just looked like an old time song
That's seen it's share of plays
And wanted to help me out

I told him how I write, and how I sing
And he said "It's good that you've found the thing
You really have a passion for."

"The thing that this world lacks is drive,
But I see the spark in your eye,
The kick in your side
And I know you're gonna make it out there"

We talked about drugs, and we talked about love
Everything we were taught, and the concept of
The things we were taught to believe

But the most important things, that I learned from him,
Is you can't spread happiness, if you don't have it within
"It's a sad fact son, but look out for number one,
Because sometimes love can't carry you through,
All the cold winters and the midnight blues
Just take a step back for a while, and maybe you'll find a better view"

It's just one of them things that'll do you right
An old soul with some good advice,
Sometimes, that's just all you need.

My soul flies from the top of a mountain,
I feel fully alive now,
Falling, falling, falling from the mountain,
My soul is well endowed,

The cold air rushes past
As I fall into a Novascocian lake
the water envelops me,
Fast,
Sinking down to the bottom,
Save me, for heavens sake..

I watched the sky bleed red last night,
It was a beautiful sight,
Maybe God cut the sunset with a knife,
Left it to die, or maybe
Bleeding is a new way of life?
Under a guise that maybe
Daytime isn't what I'm supposed to like,
And the devil's filled with spite
So he takes away the light, like,
"My shadow... touches"

Darkness, creeps, over, me,
Why, am I, scared?
Darkness, creeps, over, me,
God told me, to be-ware
I, didn't, listen
Devil pulls me, by the, hair

He said

You know your idolized reality?
It's a lie, my disciple
Can't hide your broken mentality,
You can write these peace cyphers
But what does it change, in actuality ?
Not a **** thing, young writer
Let's skip the formalities and say that
At night, I creep up in ya head like,
"I'm here, start running"


Darkness, creeps, over, me,
Why, am I, scared?
Turning, to the, word, but
God, wasn't, there,
I, should've, listened, but I
didn't, really, care,

Last night, the devil crawled in my bed like,
"Make space, we're sharing."

My eyes open slowly,
After being crusted shut
I feel like I am floating,
Moments pass...

Oh my god, I'm floating!
I observe my surroundings
Everythings... black?

A streak shoots across my field of vision
It appears to be on fire
I roll over on my side and feel nothing beneath me
I look down, and there's nothing
But what appears to be stars
And floating pieces of dust

"I am dreaming" I say to myself
"I am aware that I'm dreaming..."
"I'm in space..."

I flip myself around in the zero gravity
To find myself staring at the center
Of a spiral shaped galaxy
And all I remember
Is feeling myself fall towards the middle

I wake up, sweating

I've got no plans,
And nothing to do,
so I'll just hang around,
And dance with you,
Ms. Lucy.

We'll play our favorite bands,
and get lost in paradise.
I love to hold your hand,
But it's so hard to say goodnight,
Ms. Lucy.

I should practice what I preach,
I'm such a hypocrite

I used to have a tree,
It's gnarled limbs reaching skyward
No matter how often I climbed that tree,
It only seemed to grow higher

The day the rains came,
and the lightning struck my tree
I fell yo my knees,
for the tree is a piece of me,
and the lightning struck me too

This tree still stands,
In the woods, tall and mighty
It's rough, calloused hands,
Still blow in the breeze, nightly
Nothing can bring down my tree,
My tree is tall and proud
The smoking tree still stands,
And lets my friends and I, sit around
In his shade,
The countless games we've played
That he bore witness too
He still reaches up, towards a sky of brighter blue

Speak with kindness,
Act with mindfulness,
See with clarity,
without disparaging
Keep yourself clean,
Never take unjustly
Give, openly
Love, wholly
Walk in such a way that
Flowers bloom before your path
And birds sing the praises
Of the good you've done to this awful world  
Free yourself from suffering,
This cycle of death and rebirth
Live compassionately and devout
Without wanting, or ego
Detach yourself,
Let go..

I gotta pick myself up, get away from here
Get away from the demons from all these years
gotta enjoy myself, get away from my fears
Gotta be smiling from ear to ear

Let’s bounce from my home, to the park and get ******
From my feet, to my dome, good times in my bones
Call my dude, get an oz,
Now I’m blowing thick smoke
Memories, fade away, after every single ****

She’s gone from my life, end this year long strife
She’s gone for the night, take a chance, roll the dice
But still, she lingers, somewhere in my mind
Another party every night, I’m sure to forget her this time

Take a chance, and run with me, to a land that’s far away
We can dance out, by the sea, till the break of the day
Now it’s just I, and as for you I cannott say
I don’t care anymore, I never mattered anyway

I picked up the pieces, now I’m heading for the setting sun
Maybe I’ll find some Jesus, maybe I was born to run
I’ll look to find the answers, that may well never come
I could find my piece of Heaven, then my journey is done

The taste of your lips,
Is bitter enough to ****,
I like it that way,
The taste just seems familiar,

Seventeen years on this earth,
but what's it all been worth?
I've lived through sadness, absurd
I've lived through happiness, for sure,
Expression through my words,
It's been a good life, I concur

Seventeen years, one thousand dreams
I'm simply busting at the seams,
With ideas, and beliefs,
That I want to share with the world.

I hear voices
yes you do
They're unfamiliar
who are you?
Get out of my head
but I like it here
You're not welcome
face your fears
I won't talk to you
Oh, yes you will
I have no choice
time to ****?
why am I so crazy?
you're been so alone
I'm crying now
*come on, pick up the phone
Dial  your friends and listen to the tone
Of a voicemail message, they left you at home
again
Soon, you an I will be best friends
I'll make sure we have a beautiful and red end

Just because **** is sterile
Don't mean that it's drinkable

I'm a walking contradiction.
Most of the time, my heart is filled with joy.
I want to give unto others as they have given unto me.
I want to do good deeds and let my presence exude peaceful air.
Yet, I find it so easy to engross myself in hateful thoughts.
I feel malice run deeply in my veins.
It scorches my insides and leaves permanent burn scars that can't be undone.
I'm always going against the grain.
I get the urge to stomp on the flowers I just stopped to smell.
It's a difficult feeling to put into words.
Trying to hard to be good, then, out of reflex lashing out at nothing.

I can't wait to wake up one day and not miss you at all.
I know I deserve better but yet I still crave you.
The way your eyes used to glimmer in the sun.
The way your perfume hit my nostrils.
But no matter how badly I desire these things,
What I want, more than anything,
Is to wake up one day, and not miss you at all.

Come unto me,
Let me caress your soul
And bathe you in the
Clear waters of contentment
And we'll slip away
Into the mists of something
Wondrous

Something new,
Something fresh
Something greater than
The suffering of rebirth and death
Cycling through,
Never ending
But we've grown wise,
through holy lives
We're repenting
Unrelenting
In our drive to change
For the better,
For whatever the weather,
We're on this quest, together

Your kiss is sweeter than
The nectar of hummingbirds flowers

When the suns light escapes your grasp and you're left to wrestle with your darkness,
The night can smile warmly, or with bared teeth.

I miss you,
Let's forget about everything
And let me wrap you up in
The warmest kiss we've shared together
I think I'd cry, a little.
I think you'd cry a little.
We'd be saying so much without a word being uttered.
I miss those moments.
Those blips on the radar of history
Where nothing mattered except
Your lips and how they tasted like sweetwater
and *** appeal.

I don't remember where I was going with this anymore
I get to thinking about you and suddenly
I'm L
           O
        S
              T
Again.

The waters of your soul
Are so warm and inviting

Today you told me
How much you love
Fireflies
And I had myself an idea

I'll capture a thousand fireflies
And put them in a thousand
Glass jars
And I'll hang them from the trees
And dance with you
Until morning comes
And the sun brightens up your face
Again and I can't help
But to smile.

My head is full of pretty women and stiff drinks

The hardest part about meditation
Is coming out of it
Why would I ever leave?
It's so perfect in there
I feel the earth spinning
And the vibrations of the energy around me
I am whole
We are one
And the connection we share is beautiful.

This feeling comes bubbling from the center of my soul.
It's warm and embracing and makes the cold feel like home.
I'm not walking on sunshine, it's emitting from inside me.

Living, dying, it's all relative
You can summarize my life with a metallic click.
I don't want to be alive anymore.
I don't even care to make these words sound beautiful.

I'm just being brutally honest.

*******,
**** me,
**** the world,
I'm out,
Peace

One last kiss
Could send me happily
To the grave

Everything is warm,
Colors are vivid and bright
Sunshine in my soul.

I'm tired of it,
The darkness,
Pulling me under,
Making me feel,
Heartless
How far fetched would it be for me
To live life, free, happily
Not having to worry about the
things that you want back from me
You laughed at me, a catastrophe
Had me sick like a disease
You cannot ever put at ease
A heart that deflates easily
I could not feasibly
Ever win you back to my side,
Fingers locked with mine
And we're looking in the eyes
Very deeply into my mind,
Seeing past all the dirt and the grime,
And the hard times, and the sad times
And all the good and all the bad and in between times
You used to be mine, I used to see my
Self taking vivid swims inside your grayish green eyes
Flowing freely in a streamline,
And maybe if you look deep inside,
Maybe you could still find
Love

Your smile is the light of the sun,
Beam brightly

Powerful is he
who can conquer desire
And speak with kindness
To friend and foe

Unified under his teachings,
Are those who walk a sacred path
Towards the endless peace of Nirvana

Righteousness
Peace, and tranquility
Are my only goal

E**very day,
Spent in solitary meditation
All in an effort to be,
Pure

You make me know how it feels
To be breath taken

I can have anyone I want,
but all I want is you.
That ever out of reach object of my attention.
The moon I can't capture between my fingers.
The ever running tide from my shore.
Why do you run from me?
Or, more correctly,
Why am I chasing you?

Sitting in a smokey haze
I'm getting blazed thinkin about those days
When our love was true
You were faithful to me and I to you
I thought we'd never grow apart
So long as this necklace hangs over my heart
I gave you your half under shakey breath
I said well alwas be together if you let this touch your breast
And we wore them like it was valiant
Like we could ride away on a white stallion
Into a tangerine sunset
But I began to suspect
I'm not the only one you lie with in bed
And It turns out I was right
Caught you sneakin in last night
No need for a great big fight
I just want you gone by the mornings light
And give me that ******* necklace
You have no idea how long I saved to get this
And then you threw it's meaning away
Like our love was forgotten far longer then Yesterday
******* ***** go to hell and stay away
I'm gonna smoke this blunt and look ahead to better days

I forgive you,
For all you've done
Come back, baby...

I'll mold this world in my hands,
Pick apart the pieces of evil
Crush them between my fingers
And blow them away
Like powdered glass
Into the eyes of my shadow.
Press it down with my thumb,
With God-like strength
Erupting from my fragile human form.

It's hard being an optimist trapped in a cage of chemical imbalance
I always hope for the best, but I feel the worst on the wind
and the malice in my mouth
when I grind my teeth anxiously,
Hoping for something, anything of interest to come and inspire me
Restore my heartbeat, my chest explodes violently, fiery
A blooming flower with a soft epiphany
Bond again with my soul, a spectral synergy
My world is black and grey, Yet still,
Colored vividly

I feel so sequatious today
Walking in Ohio rain
As it pours down upon a melancholy soul
The drops are racing down my skin
Washing away all my sin
Keep me from growing old

I feel so fresh
Like I could escape death
If his hand reached for me
I taste youth upon my breath
I’m beyond refreshed
Rain pours down, eternally

She tells me these things,
She's a tease,
Makes me feel like a king,
Baby please,

I want to hear you scream,
Like you mean it,
I want to hear you scream,
Like you need it

Your body twists in pleasure,
Dripping wet,
A perfect measure,
After the sun has set
You and I, all alone
disconnect the phone,
The only thing I wanna hear right now,
Is the way you moan,

A man sat in his cramped airline seat,
His teeth chattering,
Biting down on his haggard fingernails
He had never flown before
And he never planned on it
But with the passing of a close relative
He had to take his first flight from Philly
Back to his hometown in Washington state.

Next to him sat a young boy,
who appeared to be much to young
To be by himself on this 737
The man just turned away from the young mans face
And went back to his nail biting

The boy tapped the man on the shoulder,
And he said
"Sir, I know this is scary, but there's no need
To be afraid
I've done this a hundred thousand times
Enough to know that we'll arrive
Exactly thirteen minutes late."

The man was stunned, this boy
This... small man
Enunciated his words like that of an Elder
The man turned to him, and said
"I'm sorry young man, I just can't help this
My whole life I've been isolated,
Closed off, like a shellfish"

The boy turned his head from his window and he said
"Sir, There's no need to fear the events that will unfurl,
Because you know when the oyster opens up
All that's revealed is the pearl."

And suddenly, the man felt none of the fear
He'd been living in for all these years
He rested comfortably, no longer fighting tears
His cycle was broken, the moment was chosen
When he leant the child his ear

I got up this morning
And tasted the air
And it held a twinge of salt
And regrets I can do nothing about
It held a taste of
the bitterness
That comes after actions you wish you hadn't committed
And it made my mouth twist and contort
Into the only shape it feels comfortable in now,
As I mutter "I love you.."
I know you're not thinking of me

Smoke it, snort it, break it down,
Grind it, roll it up,
Inject it, snort some more
Smoke some more
You can always do
A little more
You know you want your heart to stop
As much as all the toxins
You dump in your body
You ******* fiend.  
                                     - Drugs

I see sunshine through the rain
I gain power from my pain
No more running delusionaly deranged

I'll put my hopes in faith,
And my head on straight,

Cause I got my baby back

I wish I had the strength,
to pull the trigger

I feel like I'll eventually be
Forgotten
Placed in the footnotes of histories *** crack
An insignificant blip on the radar of Earth
Fading away into the memories
Of a dead planet and a dying species

As my ancestors came before me,
So I shall be
Dead in the dirt, while the worms
Feed upon me,

I just wish I could be a hermit
Spend my days quietly meditating
Watching young trees grow tall
While the world forgets about me,
And I was it spiral into chaos
While I sit here,
Watching, and waiting,
Perfect equanimity
As the world falls around me
In small glass and steel pieces

But it's okay to be forgotten,
It means you never made any ripples
and if my life goes as I want it too,
I'll be pushed out of everyones head
Before I am even dead

And I want it that way

I know you'll probably never notice,
but I have to say, your smile is infectious.
I feel I'll always admire you in silence.

When you're an insomniac,
You keep track of time by moons instead of numbers.

All our lives are transient,
So just live

For me