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 Jun 2013 Roni Shelley
E
Stuck.
 Jun 2013 Roni Shelley
E
I
am
stuck
between
who
I
want
to
become
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--------me-------
~~~~~~~~~
and
who
they
want
me
to
become.
I don't know what to do.
There is
Nothing.
There was
Nothing.
We made it
Something.
But before that,
It was nothing.
These dumb
Pretences,
These shows
Of emotion.
All based on
The face
We made.
The words
We say,
Must we
Say them?
The prayers
I pray
Are all
I have.
im shaking,
im anxious,
i need it right now,
that feeling,
that rush,
that knowing of how,
although im still cautious,
i prepare it with haste,
the fire, the inhale,
that feeling, that taste,
it hits me, i hate it,
i love it, its mine,
im faded, you see me,
im ****** up,
you're fine.
i do this for me,
all alone in the dark,
to only past the time,
while i wait for a spark,
that something,
that someone,
the thing everyone gains,
but everyone is not me,
you see when it drizzles,
it rains.
 Jun 2013 Roni Shelley
Anna
I am a poltergeist,
Whirling madly
Through sweet emotions.
Throwing plates
At the frivolous kitchen floor
Until I fall against it,
Us both laughing till I fade.
What if words never come to me again?
like they came when I was
idontknow
different

What if I never feel like me again?
they way I was when hell yes
Of Course I was the best at being
idontknow
Different

What if i get lonely again?
the lonely i get when they sky is too dark
and the air stagnant
I don't like the way it feels--so
idontknow
  different
i feel lost                                                                                              
like a piece of
d  r  i  f  t  w  o  o  d                                    

lost                                                                                
cut off          
cast away                                

no direction                                              
no place to be
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