I have perfected the art of drowning
Letting myself sink to the bottom
Feeling the suffocation
Over.... And over. Again.... and again
The torment in my skin
Salty taste in my mouth
Blowing the last bubbles before letting go
Making my body less of a human
It's so quiet down here
No voice to hear
Even my own words can't be spoken
So peaceful yet so haunting
Able to move my body but keep touching the same things
Keep feeling the same emotions
Hesitant of finding help
Waiting for my lungs to give up
Just be gone
Be the nothingness the world has never known
My mind is calm yet frustrated
The future is so blurry for it all will seem to be the same
Oh... How simple it is
And yet
so complicated

Therefore the shadows are seen
I cannot touch them
There is no fixing the invisible
It can only be an illusion
A quiet demand for change
The echoes are getting larger
Larger than what the heart can contain
Who I am can never be known
Only by name
It's too sensitive
Less friendly
You can drop the tears and leave it as ghost
Or rip it out and lose a soul
It cannot be cheated
All it can do for you is hate it
Scary it could be
But all you can do is trust the unkown

I was walking by the isle
Drifting through the sea
Finding a river
Looking for a tree
Then a thought of a home

Forever be finding?
Never good for settling
They called me ****** heart
I say nomad

I fought to live
I took the rocks filled the walls
Finding a soul
Trying to call the places a home
But their just houses
I am nomad

It was a Saturday
I thought and wish that i could stay
But i was freeing the fears
Letting it all express itself in tears
It was time to stand up
Walk and never stop

Of course i have thought of looking back
Time traveling to the near past
Be stock and remember how fast
How fragile to be stock
But all of it will just be a part
Something that can no longer stay in our heart

Now I'm one step ahead of us
I'm 10 feet below me
It's all so quick as the bus
I don't see how it will be
How can i stop the bleeding
When the pain keeps on giving

It's all pitch black like the untold
So steep, so high, so cold
For a moment it was pain
In memory it is love
For now it's falling
Tomorrow keep moving

So it's Saturday

I have nothing left to say

It came out in fire
But burned by water
Drowned inside my blood
Running and dripping
One by one i counted
Falling falling falling
Playing the old sound
Crying the same drama
A whole in my soul
A part from you
Apart from them
Stripping away the last time
Hungry for the first time
Oh my yesterday be reborn
Tomorrow i will see myself torn

I tried to stop the tears from falling
To hid the wounds we once tried to pause from repeating
Kinda like our lost pitty hug
I could still feel the empty embrace choking me for no reason
It was still a yesterday in my mind but a tomorrow for you
I wanted rewind but the buttons of the past no longer exist
I still live the dark days of the dark places where i got trapped
I wanted a fastforward out of this beautiful tragic movie
A happy ending would have been great
A sorry goodbye for an ending would have been fine too
But all i got was just lost clues of how an ending could be played forever in a painfull way as if it was just a background outside the real view
Now i have thought of this through and through
It just ended like....
It never really even started at all

The things we do not see today
Will lead us to our tomorrow