I have perfected the art of drowning
Letting myself sink to the bottom
Feeling the suffocation
Over.... And over. Again.... and again
The torment in my skin
Salty taste in my mouth
Blowing the last bubbles before letting go
Making my body less of a human
It's so quiet down here
No voice to hear
Even my own words can't be spoken
So peaceful yet so haunting
Able to move my body but keep touching the same things
Keep feeling the same emotions
Hesitant of finding help
Waiting for my lungs to give up
Just be gone
Be the nothingness the world has never known
My mind is calm yet frustrated
The future is so blurry for it all will seem to be the same
Oh... How simple it is
And yet
so complicated