Yes

   You are wonderful

            These words were for no one
                          About nobody

But take them, now they're yours.
Believe them stranger.
Wear an unforced smile, with pride.
Believe those words strangers.
If I make you smile, I guess I'm wonderful too.

my thoughts were clear until i wrote them
and then they werent again

I'm trying to recall a moment where I really knew myself
I used to count every single sun kissed lamppost
I used to taste every single wine drenched kiss
Now my nights and days are all jumbled and joined up into one
And my lips cannot recall a single second of solitude in a slumber
I used to love the way my guitar sounded when it was raining
I used to love life and the way it flipped back and forth
Following no specific pattern, creating no schedule
Now my life is a calendar of days I can't remember
and nights I slept through not even knowing what the stars looked like
I used to count the stars

I guess all I'm trying to say is I used to be in love with love
and now I have to fight to keep it

I knew you'd always leave me alone.
With cold words in my brain I would never say.
Cracking the war inside my head with the nightmare I turned into.
Dying everyday to have you never remember by the time the days fade.
These days pass slowly while I pace wondering if I could've stopped you.
And I'm forgetting how to feel, can you save me from myself?
Can you chase these ghosts away?
I tried to find some ways to hide myself away.
How could give me all this clarity, and then leave me gasping to breathe?
When I even gave up everything, my past still followed me to this ledge I'm leaning to fall off of.
And I gave, and I still give for all these empty mistakes, I continue to make.
How can I share all this with someone else when I thrive in this hell?
Here in this dark side of me..
In this lonely lost, what have I become out of this life I've been given?
How would you expect me to move on when all these skeletons bonding me to you.
Pull me down, choke me down, how could I dance when you always tripped me.
Why did you go?
I'd surrender every piece of me to see you again.
I'd paint you in a million different ways, just to try to get a structured mind again.
How do I live this life blinded with what you left me?
All these angels ****** and stomped out, the lost children they are.

Life is about dying to self, there is no true Life without dying.
Just like there is not getting without giving it away.
For if you hoard everything that you get then you will end up   without.
For there is nothing greater then Love, its the greatest of action.
Faith , Hope, Joy, and Love is greater then these three combine.
Trust is very important another verb of action for you do it  no matter what.
So all of these verbs are very important in your relationship with Christ.

My smile is burden with the weight of disappointment
With every let down I have been handed
Envelope folded desolation
I have learned to speak sorrow
With my tongue bended backwards
Trained in speaking a language
I might never fully understand
Sew stitching every reality
Along the corners of my mouth
Wear glasgow happiness
As if it's enough
To trick me out of my insecurities
Help me to believe
That contentment
Is not just temporary
That not everybody who comes into my life
Plans on leaving
But I am too familiar with goodbye
To understand welcome
I am used
To crossing my arms into shield
Knotting my fists into apology
I may never know conversation without sorry
But am attempting
To set my expectations low enough
To able to reach them
Without falling.