I shouldn't be here.


I should still be with Alyna.  
In South Carolina.
Or in our second apartment in Minnesota.

I've messed up so much.
Those girls never mattered.
Never would've gave me the love she had for me.

I was blind, and stupid.
We could've had everything.

I don't deserve another chance , but here I am looking for one. I can't handle the thought of her or Kirbie being with someone else.

Jammin to Californication,
While The Zephyr hums a tune.
While it may be to early for a Monarchy, the Roses are finally in bloom.

my anger is a submersion
and like a deep current
that pushes its darker waves
angularly
I go under

my anger is a fear
that growls its last hurt
as the hunter chases
and strangles
veins that
turn blue

my anger is a question
of strange events
too painful
that now bare no connection
to me

my anger is a plea
that I am not
the hunter or the hunted
but I am free
to walk upon the fields

I love you my love & will love you for life
For its only your love that keeps me alive
Memories of past, when together were you & I
Sweet were they then but now make me cry
Then was the time when we were together
And wished we to live like that forever
But we parted despite not wanting
With love in our hearts never ending
"May our wish come true", I still pray
"May I be yours & you be mine", I pray,
You are in my heart my love & will be for life
And it's only your love that keeps me alive...

Your face how it shines
Your lips upon my skin
Is all that I dream