Now this isn't quite a poem but it keeps me up at night just the same.

hes my best friend only in a way. I'm not sure if he thinks of, or even see's me but hes in my dream.
i'm under water with a sheet of what appears to be glass over me. As i'm screaming and crying and all but breathing I see him on the other side, trying to get to me. no use as it seems i'm not going to make it. As i look down for a solution i see him. He's the reason for this pain the reason i have trouble smiling like i used to or even speaking. He holds me back and i struggle... struggle...struggle... please please please please help me. Break the glass let me breath, its all your fault. Why cant you just leave me? Although the apairent death to  become he stays to try to help me but part of me is still  taken away with the other one and i can't take it anymore.  don't still love him it can't be, he destroyed me killed me. I'v found someone who will keep me for me so please stop this nonsense and just go away because, you are the reason i'm scared to go to sleep at night because i know you'll  there.

The difference between promises and memories

we break promises

memories break us

they call me crazy
they say i'm sane
they called me sweet
but now i'm mean
they said i was a lier
but they don't see the pain

I have some secrets
my best friend doesn't know
i wont let you see
who i was back then
just know i'm me now

He has a name that helps you sleep
his hand so comfortable in yours
his smile "made" you laugh

he said he loved you to death
we both know the truth
he lied to your face

you ran for help
only to find me
i'm always there for you
ill never be unavalible for you when u need help

true friends stay
real men love

and ****** bags play