The paths that have crossed
To the friends who proved
My worth is greater than
The strangers we held once
Memories that strain
For the eyes that swell
The smiles we shared
To the pain we dealt
Like the cards
Stacked against us
To the bliss we felt
In his arms she melt
The paths we chose
It was a blessing
To be taken away
Like the rose
That wasn't watered
I'm grateful to have loved
There is no right people
Wrong time
Just choices

But she forgot
He too needed the same love
She received
May be she needed it more

We met
Like a Samaritan
But
Etched in my heart
And my right triceps
If ever needed
This proof of no regret
Only to be strangers again

The chain of thought
Doesn’t seem to break
And streetlights doesn’t seem to fade
And the pills wouldn’t take.
The broken clock
Adorns the floor,
The faintest whisper
Seems like a knock on the door,

Ubiquitous anxiety
Plays a tug of war
With my cousin of death,
The stares at the ceiling
Grow heavy with each breath,
The page lends a shoulder
The pen a helping hand,
The highway traffic finds its way
To my ear,
And its only darkness I befriend.

Take this kiss on the forehead
Far way, gone and dead
This is the prelude to the end
My loving friend
As sands of hope
Battling broke
Escape through my clenched fist
Staring back through mirror and mist
Vows of Forevermore

In your love's embrace,
My soul finds its grace.
Without you, I'm adrift,
Your presence, my life's gift
Intertwined with my core
Closer than a kin
The touch of your flawless skin
Tattooed on my finger tips
The taste of your lips
Linger on mine
Our souls aligned
Yearning for a dream fulfilled
Many a wish killed
My heart at the behest of your smile
To see you for a minute, I would walk a mile
How perfectly your hand fits in mine
Beyond the relationships that can be defined
We found us
You are mine and I'm yours
In a way that
Only we know

Staring at the phone for hours
Searching for nothing
But it helps
When you are tired of staring at the ceiling
And the chain of thoughts
I continue to chase
There are people in the other room
That I don't want to face
Tossing and turning covered in a shroud
Knowing very well that's not what I'm about
It's like you are lost in the crowd
The ones you knew have waved goodbye
Makes you think
Is this what you want out of life?
Nothing more to pretend
The night is about to end
But she's leaves with a cloak of gloom
Ubiquitous anxiety fills the room
Like the ghosts of disappointments past,
The peeking lights left me aghast,
Cowered,
It's only darkness I devoured.

The night
My only friend

The chain of thought
Doesn’t seem to break
And streetlights doesn’t seem to fade
And the pills wouldn’t take.
The broken clock
Adorns the floor,
The faintest whisper
Seems like a knock on the door,

Ubiquitous anxiety
Plays a tug of war
With my cousin of death,
The stares at the ceiling
Grow heavy with each breath,
The page lends a shoulder
The pen a helping hand,
The highway traffic finds its way
To my ear,
And its only darkness I befriend.

In inspiration
And in heart break
Through my only intake
And my only vent
When I am hell bent
My only weeping friend
My pillow talk
To me pep talk
In walks
Of solitude
And in gratitude
For my good mourning
And my without warning
In my tribute
And my praise
In adolescence and age
In my deluge
And refuge
My constant companion
Thank you
Dear music

Every friend that I lost
Ever lesson I learnt
Every failure I fought
Every night I felt tossed

Are like medals earned
In the form of
Scar tissue

I'm not your friendly neighbor
I am not your Sunday best
I'm not your happily ever after
I'm the leap year
I'm the one who doesn't send your love notes
I am writer of odes
I am a "3 am" person
I'm the one too good to be true
I'm a labyrinth
I'm the collector of storms
And giver of goosebumps
I'm the one you count on
When all else fails
Just take me
As I am
I am not to be understood
I am to be felt
I am an EXPERIENCE

My old friend,
Your grasp, a never-ending bend.
Eyes wide, mind racing fast,
Another night, forever cast.
In wakeful misery, I lay,
Counting sheep that won't stay away.
A prisoner, in my own mind,
Till morning's light, I'm confined.

My old friend,
With the devil, I have dined
To you I lied
I hate being by your side
I wish to run away
From this gloom and gray
Never to cross your path
I can deal with this aftermath
Just to dream
For you, I will hold a requiem
Let me go
I am done with this to and frow,
Find someone else to hold
I can't deal with this, I am getting old

Unwritten
Yet evident,
Unseen
Yet felt,
Unheard
But never in doubt,
Ineffable
Yet undeniable,
Not perfect
But a blessing,
Souls connected,
In invisible ties
In contradictions
And in bond
Not to be understood
But to cherish

Looked hard
Trying to figure out
This man in the mirror
The scars that sculpted
Memories that rusted
More than a friend I trusted
Old flames that burnt
Into ashes
The pages that turned
The golden sunsets that blinded
A merciful God that reminded

Everything it took
To be myself

Take this kiss on the forehead
Far way, gone and dead
This is the prelude to the end
My loving friend
As sands of hope
Battling broke
Escape through my clenched fist
Staring back through mirror and mist
The vows of forevermore
A dream within a dream
My heart's requiem
My smile attempts deceit
But my eyes forfeit
On repeat
But
You can be rest assured
Your place reserved
In the deepest of the chambers
To which you
And you alone
Hold the keys
Let me dream so that I may never wake up
Forevermore

I got a few screws loose
But I'm higher than the noose
Must be the kush
Maybe I needed that push
Thoughts of a recluse
Don't ever confuse
My kindness for weakness
I got the juice
Coz it's life I choose

Your negativity is neutralized
For I grow in silence
Like trees
I fall
But I rise again in May
In spite of your lies
Or what you may say

I found peace
In solitude

In introspect
And quiet
I can see my flaws
Clearly
I gave myself
To the undeserving
Or so I think?

I gave myself
I gave my best
I carry this baggage
Of
No regrets
Regardless of the outcome
I know I'm blessed

I'm grateful
For the life I have
I can see in the mirror
Knowing
Who will stand with me
No matter what

I know myself
Abandoned
But not alone
Not a soul beside me
Everything I need
Inside me

I germinate
From my own seeds
Their smiles
The only motivation I need
I know the drill
Sun light and chlorophyll
H2O and inner work
I have been a ****
Soliloquy has it's perk

I have been here before
And I made it through
Against all the odds
Me against the world


You can hold it against me
You can count my wrongs
I will count your rights
No more be nice
I have paid the price
No surprise
And I will look with my life with no regrets
Meeting you was nice

Still I rise

I'm English they say
I miss you

In poetry we say
Though I may breath
And my heart may beat
But the ache I feel for you
Are failed words
On a paper

Whether you stay or go
I'm not at the mercy
Of your presence
Dipped in regret.
I would rather lose you
Than lose myself
Let this be a lesson
For you and I
I needed to lose you
To love me

I'm a hopeless romantic
All I do is panic
I crave those unicorn moments
When you say the words unspoken
This feeling is a sanctum
Our meeting far from random
Our big bang preordained,
I know at times, the relationship may be strained
Like the meeting of the galaxies
The push and pull,
Like the never-ending spool
Endlessly tapestry
More than just chemistry
The kiss and the drool
But this magic never old
I never get tired of the magic
Only together, we create this magic
Our story seems tragic
But this hope like an ever burning candle
There's nothing we can't handle
This feeling will never get cold
Whatever our future holds
We have each other
No matter what

I am shaped by
The hearts of stone
And light that shone
Through the cracks

I'm the artist
I'm the poet
I'm the angst
I'm mirror that I stare
I'm the abyss
I'm the prayer
I'm the crash
I'm the storm
Still beautiful
Without you

Poetry and praise
Through insomnia and craze
In the mundane and struggle
In faith and in doubt
In action and inaction
In thoughts unspoken
In bonds unbroken
Never in
Hand in hand
Being apart

Bring me your quite,
Bring me your hurt,
Bring me your storm,
All of it,

Even the aftermath,

Watch me,
Watch me,
coz I have been through many myself

The unknown,
the unheard,
the unseen,
the unwitting,

I have loved you in ways,
Your heart couldn't fathom

the winds of change blow,
I fight and try to stay afloat
But my will gives up

the evening sun sets
fleeting through the hands of time
blessed is the present

Driven like passion,
Unlike cars with no gas in,
The journey begins

beyond the three words,
or any word could describe,
no time or space can decide,
beyond the cliches
of love poems,
or the ring which
I can take off every time I shower,
Or calls I wait for
every hour,
beyond the loyalty,
if words could deceive,
not conditional,
but a joy to receive,
no wasting time,
no foreplay of sacrifice of mortal flowers,
no wall of promises,
that towers,
over all that makes sense,
no I am not talking
about no strings attached,
no messages
tracked,
no pressure of trying
to match the party wear,
no matter where I go,
you are always partly there,
a voice
so unmistakable,
share a bond
so unbreakable

They say its all about the destiny,
Whatever’s meant to be,
All I need was a little air to breathe,
First, it didn’t make sense,
Time to make a few cents,
No pretence,
I left it at the last airport,
Though I had hope,
Coz life had come at the cross roads,
Where I met a few lost souls
Equally confused,
Exploited and abused,
Even my own blood,
I had to open the third,

Its getting cold
And I don’t mean weather,
But hopeful for the better,
And that’s not when I never did dope,
My only ray of hope,
Had me going against the world
Its all about the word,
Like two pieces of puzzle,
Will I ever learn to hustle?
I passed on,
From the school of the hardknocks,
The battle was long and hard fought,
I m still ready for whatever,
Hail or high water,
The trouble was never with the bent,
It was God sent,
It made me who I am,
All part of the plan,
To you it may seem nothing,
10 years and running….

So they thought,

I must have lost the bragging rights,

I thought I had it twice,

Nice with the flow,

Even nicer in person

Until you irk me,

I found these numbers to work with,

This pen to hurt with,

And be one with,

My only passion in life,

Coming back from setbacks

No head rests,

Just work my *** off,

Something I am blessed for

Life, and much more

Thank you God for this challenge,

No sandy beaches or beverage,

Where would I ever be?

I passed on every thing I knew,

Just lessons on lessons,

I did it my way,

Another brick in the wall,

Never quick to fall,

I aint got a prove it,

My worth to you,

It comes and goes, time flies

by the things money can't buy

Rich and richer,

Don't worry you won't get the picture,

Until you meet me,

That's the beauty,

that's imperative,

just adding another chapter

to my narrative

Let me patient,

Let me be kind,

Make myself unselfish,

Without being blind

I may have faith

To make mountain fall,

But if I lack love,

I am nothing at all

Climbing the mountains
Only to find one more,
Its like I am climbing
a never ending mountain
but isn’t that what I asked for
about to rip the mask off
or is this the last of
the peaks I need to put this flag on,
or is it the white sand
my feet need to drag on
the past behind me,
Why do I still brag on?

Is my best behind me?
coz that is what defined me
all my failures beside me
time to redesign me
All I need,
Inside me

Yes, I have found my self,
Struck,
Between the wrongs and the rights

The long and the nights,
The fought and the fights,
The frost and the bites,
My lost and the sights
The cross and the kites,

In the last pages
of respite,
But I did it all,
Despite,
The winds in my hair
The grin in my chair
Without a whim of care,

And I lost my self
Between,
The poetry and prose,
Knowingly that I chose
Focusing on the most,
If I ever need a host,
Romancing like a ghost,
And all of this,

Knowing I was close

We have never really talked,
But I think I can,
Knowing I am the son of the same soil that anointed you,
And I come from the same city you started it all,
Before I say something I would like to touch your feet,
Pay my respects
I don't know where to start from,
Probably, in school they taught your lessons,
I didn't know back then it was a blessing,
Instead I made fun of you,
disfiguring your picture in the textbook,
Now I think, How could I?
I hope you can forgive me
And you said "hate the sin, not the sinner",
But it was 2nd October and didn't miss your movie,
It feels so nostalgic to me,

My grandfather once saw you,
He used to tell me stories about you,
How a nation was saved,
And the struggles you braved,
They say your thoughts are obsolete,
But not for me,
What you have instilled in me is priceless,
Beyond caste, color and race,
I wish I could tell you face to face,
From shaking the empire to your fasting,
Time in prison to the Salt March,
I wish I could take a part,
Shaking the foundations,
To making us a proud nation,
Bringing to us that moment of Salvation,
From Indigo to salt to cotton,
You fought them,
To millions under starvation,
Making us think from a common man's point of view,
It was you,
From self reliance,
To defiance,
You did it,
And all that without use of force,
I wished you could have stayed longer,
Bless some of the lost souls,
Left some of us on crossroads,

And they say Jesus told us what to do,
You taught us how to do it,
Forgive me, younger me was stupid,
You paved the way for King Jr. and Mandela to aspire,
And many others feel inspired,
But the sad part is that,
Against you they still conspire.
Living free,
Not knowing you did it for us,
How a thin barely clothed man could do wonders,
You taught us to stand for injustice,
You don't need a Nobel Prize, the only true ambassador of peace,

And the loyalists still follow,
Your word is never leaving,
Words are not enough,
But I feel your sorrow,
You made me believe,
Anything is possible
If you stay focused and work for it,
There's so much more to learn,
Nothing but gain knowledge,
And I try to pay homage,
Statues around the world,
Left us true word
The legacy lives on,
No matter how much I say
It will not be enough
Nobody can fill your shoes
Even if they try to,
The world calls you Mahatma, I call you Bapu

Silence is golden,
And I am breaking the barriers,
Silence in golden,
And I am coming with the chariots,
Silence is woven,
And I am untying the labyrinth,
Silence is golden
Call me a maverick,
Silence is broken
And I am bleeding the floor,
Silence is golden,
I am like a fly knocking the door,
Silence is olden
I am rewriting the history,
Silence is golden,
I am unfolding a mystery,
Silence is interwoven
The message is subliminal,
Silence is golden,
But keep your words minimal,
Silence is golden
Every night I turn a criminal,
Silence is golden,
Every verse is pivotal,
Silence is golden,
For those willing to prey,
Silence is golden,
Only for those who don't know what to say

If patience is a virtue,
I have things I want to undo,
8 pm was the curfew,
Where could I run to?
I ran to Canada,
False promises, my only damager,
They try to assassinate my character,
The struggle is never ending,
And I ain't done defending,
The thin strings once severed,
There is no mending

If paradise is prison,
Then I am bound to have a vision,
The enlightened one,
In the stare of the sun,
If I ever miss a step,
No route to this mental map,
The bottle I threw away, should have kept,
Now lost amongst the kelp,
I ask for no help,
My aks knows,
Betrayals of foes,
This enemy within,
Can't control my Saimese twin,
This Feeling,
Learnt through annealing
Un-retreating,
Is biased beyond a greeting,
When I say farewell,
Even my better half couldn't tell.

Through the ebbs
and the flows,
Beyond the ones,
The new born knows,
In struggle
And through pain
The rain
Returns,
What the sun
took away.

back where I belong
twenty eight hours in transit
come home to jet lag

time slips through your hands,
and all you try to do is
make strong sand castles

poetry is pain
words otherwise left unsaid
my hand's been aching

Through trials and tribulations
I learn to live the life,
Sure! I can put it in words

In a room full of,
Disappointments & trials,
I couldn't find hope lost

All the women dream about it,
all men do beyond accepting,
Through years of finding
Reasons to do it,

From the crimson petals
That tailor the tux,
To hours spending
Never thinking
I was out of luck,
From the perfection,
To persistence of joy,
I passed the test,
To a man now,
No longer a boy,
What has God brought,
together, No man destroy

Waiting for the day,
For my angel,
And her day to be,
Unless God makes,
The makers labour in vain,

The magical sight,
Where the background
Gets blurry,
Visions of the past,
Find winds to fly,
If ever in doubt,
A mother's eyes
Couldn't hold,
From now to the
Six feet fold,

A promise to be,
A promise to keep,
In a meeting of minds,
The rings collide,
This feelings never subside,
In a dream like a collage
Forever abide,
No words could describe,

Against the world,
Inside the heart of a girl,
I found a place,
Glee on her face,
To me not looking beyond,
The cliche's of settling down,
I came around,
I care to inherit,
Getting married

Had a dream, the dream
Known by Coretta Scott King
Without action don’t dream

I am a monster,
If there's such a ******* thing,
No, It wasn't a dream

I am drawn
to you
like sketches
no, its not a metaphor
that's coz I am an artist
and you
are my favorite masterpiece

Let the breeze sway me,
I caught the wind in my hand,
Of course, I wasn't ready

Fly
I saw a bird with broken wings
fly through the cracked sky,
I flap my one wing
And get ready to fly,
But I fear to soar and be hit by
An astray plane and die today,
Atleast tried
But why? you say

my skin hates my bones,
my brain hates my heart,
it wants my heart to be pulled apart,
But i follow my heart,
Coz I was told so by the Father,
Life is getting harder,
the skies r getting darker,
I m ready for whats after,
So I wouldn’t lie,
Lord give me wings to fly

Revolution will not be televised,
The same way television will not be revolutionized,
That's why I use this pen,
The revolution in my hand,
A generation cannot be defined,
What is a definition of a generation?
Where do we draw the line?
I am trying to push the line,
Mold it into words,
Never get over this crush
Unlike a high school infatuation,
Look again, in fact what you are facing,
Deeper than my dead skin,
My heart racing,

Genuinely, I am in love,
All my love in genuine plus all of the above

Brilliant like the glow,
Of the dazed circling moths,
Until the lights go out

The pen is calling,
Ink is bleeding non stop,
I am tired of it.