When the world is asleep and my back aches from the tension
I lay and stare
The sliver of light that sneaks in from the busy street below can only hold my attention for so long
My eyes wander and find the back of your head
Looking away from me eyes closed no worries
While lightning bolts slice down my spine
My eyes heavy with sleep my body electrocuted and on fire
No calming me now
You told me once to find a happy place
There are so many I know there are but I can't find them
Calm ocean scenes interrupted by tsunamis
Family holidays with earth shattering accidents
Laying on your chest and the ground moves as you tell me you're leaving me
Is my mind playing tricks or is it all impending doom
The storm in my body shocks my brain and I can't tell the difference between real and dreams
Or is it my reality now
Not sleeping just staring
Envious of you, as you are oblivious of the weather in our bed