Watching my life live on video
Inferring everything about me.
From tip to top I feel it's all true.
I just want to break free.
Letting me go unconsciously
Knowing I'll always come back.
Injecting myself with the breath of life,
It's like a cheat. Life's very own hack.
As waves of the sea of life
Crash upon the shores of betrayal and lies,
Washing away all the memories
I realize how quickly time flies.

Is it hatred and resentment?
Maybe it is, maybe it's not.
Confusion and chaos in my mind,
Maybe it's not as I thought.
Searching through the pile of dirt
Expecting to find a silver lining,
Hanging on by a thin thread,
Hoping to finally see the sun shining.
With every fall, I stand again
And finally I've now let go.
I just thought you should know.

Watching my life live on video
Inferring everything about me.
From tip to top I feel it's all true.
I just want to break free.
Letting me go unconsciously
Knowing I'll always come back.
Injecting myself with the breath of life,
It's like a cheat. Life's very own hack.
As waves of the sea of life
Crash upon the shores of betrayal and lies,
Washing away all the memories
I realize how quickly time flies.

It suddenly prevails.
The walls cave in,
Hearts breaking,
Hands shaking,
History in the making,
But it'll never be the same.

It dawns on me now.
It's finally finished.
Everything's diminished
And you ask how?
To which I have no answer
Not a word, not one.
The war is done
And I won.

And it dawns on me now.
I have conquered.
Emotions fall and I rise.
I rise to your demise.
If not now, when will I realize?
Royalty in my world, I stand alone.
Some call it hatred, some a heart of stone.

Where are you?
I am here, rock bottom,
and it isn't a place
but a state of mind.
It's another dimension
where you venture out
for something you can't find.
In another world,
I am there yet I am not.
I am sane yet I am not.
I am alive yet I feel nothing.
Where am I?
Find me if you can.

I wish you could see
how happy I am without you,
and see how much better I can do;
how much better I did.

If only you could see
and let it eat you alive from the inside,
hurt you so much that you can't even hide,
hurting far more than I did.

Let it eat at your heart
like acid raining only there.
Make you scream in agonizing pain,
Get the craziest of thoughts and go insane!

Regrets piling up over more regrets,
you reminisce on memories of the past,
ponder on ideas of what could have been us.
But our denouement resulted from having no trust.
None.

A newfound haven I've discovered within you
Unexpected occurrences always seem the best
Is it all too good to even be true?
Now that, I shall put to the test!
But should I really engage in that?
Why not accept it wholly?
Better so than falling on my face flat.
And you make me complete, totally.
New memories were made
Time spent will never come back
You've come to be my jade and
Those memories are so secure,
That not even a hacker could hack.
Not much to reveal,
Not much to conceal.
All is how it is, how it should be
No one else, just you and me.