The great thing
is not having
a mind. Feelings:
oh, I have those; they
govern me. I have
a lord in heaven
called the sun, and open
for him, showing him
the fire of my own heart, fire
like his presence.
What could such glory be
if not a heart? Oh my brothers and sisters,
were you like me once, long ago,
before you were human? Did you
permit yourselves
to open once, who would never
open again? Because in truth
I am speaking now
the way you do. I speak
because I am shattered.

Salt tears,
False smile,
Quivering cheeks,
In denial.

No control,
Twitching limbs,
Holding onto,
Unlikely dreams.

Boxed in room,
White walls,
Trees in hand,
Confidence falls.

Walk slow,
Hold breath,
Hold on,
Step by step.

Name said,
Swayed speech,
Judged more,
Heavy feet.

Pace out,
Confidence falls,
White walls,
Boxed inside.

Failed.

No pride.

Same again,
New day,
Nothing changed.

I dream.
Continue to dream.
I'm a machine.
I shall succeed.

You won't stop me.

Class after class
Breath after breath

No focus on tests
Just focus on stress

In
My body relaxes
Out
I smile

The sun beams down on me
And shines out through my pores
And my mouth

Through my smile

Stretching for no purpose but
Joy

As I lay in the grass
(Which may have dog ****)

Tucked in shirt
I decide to unbutton

Chest hair exposed
Surrounded by strangers

In
My body relaxes
Out
I smile

I arrive at home
Just in time

I walk to the park
Orange in hand

Slice by slice
Spray by spray

Glimmering magic released
Sweet citrus aroma

My tongue waits patient
As my senses indulge

Citrus
And
Flowers

Smiling

The raw scent of salt
And crashing of waves

I can find no fault
Smiling
in a daze

Bite by bite
And site by site

The orange and I
Appreciate

In
My body relaxes
Out
I smile