I think about you all the time
I think of you always
I can't get you out of my head
Would you politely excuse yourself?
Do me a favor and stop
I can't do this
I can't not be with you
I can't not hold you
I could kiss you forever
if you'd let me
and I don't why
I just wish you would open your eyes
but who am I kidding ?
You'll always be blind
Why you?
Why me?
Why can't we be?
My heart is breaking
and I need you
I need you here always
Always next to me
Never leave me
Just don't walk away again
I don't think I could bear to watch
My heart is screaming for you
and I think it lost its voice
Months and months ago
From the day we met
I knew I wanted to be yours
and I don't think I can do this
Anymore..

© 2012 Christina Jackson

I've held on so long
that my fingers might break
under the pressure of the weight
you dropped on me
I can't shake this feeling
Like a pencil stuck in the
schoolroom ceiling, just waiting to take
the fall.

I've cried out so much
my throat might crush
I can't take the tingle
that intercepts my veins
like the warnings you gave me
straight to my brain.

I don't mind it
Shovel up another spoon full
lets get through with it
I like the taste of medicine
any
way.

I'm a six foot castle
with a head made of stone
you tried to get in
but you battled all alone
My eyes are battlements from
which I fire missiles to
fight off all my demons
they never leave me alone

My minds a raging bar fight
with people throwing chairs
you came in a dress
you were so unprepared
My hands are devils tools
with which I make my music
I write up all my demons
they never leave me alone

But this is just a lie
my walls are made of skin
and they're not air tight
my eyes are just eyes
with a touch of blue
Irises and pupils with which
I watch you battle all alone

I know I'm not a castle but
I've got this head made of
stone