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617 · Aug 2015
Understanding
Rai Aug 2015
All I want is for someone
Anyone to understand
The sturrings of my soul
They seem fine when the sun is shining from my  eyes
But when my darkness returns
Nothing but silence and escape
616 · Nov 2010
HELP!
Rai Nov 2010
GOD HELP ME*

As the water covers my face and swollows up my breath

As the softness of the pillow placed over my face

starves me of life giving oxygen*

HELP ME

why didnt you come

As he held my face down

it hurts god .....it hurts!


HELP

Me when I stumble

Left with so much pain

I fall unto myself forgetting who I am

ME

I dont want to feel this pain

WHY COULDN'T YOU HELP ME GOD

then i wouldnt be sitting here with tears

running down my sorry face

ME

it's me god remember

DO YOU REMEMBER?

why the hell is it you never answer me?

And as the life runs from my body

God held my face to the ground

he held me as the water swollowed my breath

And he placed the pillow over my face

SO WHY DID HE MAKE ME BEG FOR LIFE ?

why did he try to **** me inside?

well i'm tellin you

I kicked

I screamed

And I never for a moment believed in you

WHY?

*I don't think I need to answer that
cpy:2010      Not really into all the god /religon thing but this came from a deep place still trying to understand it ......
614 · May 2013
Another day
Rai May 2013
Another day
Like clockwork
we unwind from our night dreams
Emerging upon the waking world
Eager to create our dayly existence
Reaching
Ever reaching
Levels in which we can learn to understand
and remember why we turn the clock
Tick tock tick and a tock
Dream time beckons me home
But I will fight to stay alive
611 · Nov 2010
Breathe
Rai Nov 2010
This silence holds me and  
I learn to breathe
and as night falls
the lake  
Glistens in all its majestic glory
I see the ripples on the water
fish rise  gasping for air
And as this silence holds me
I learn to breathe
610 · May 2013
Conversations
Rai May 2013
Conversation has become somewhat stifled
Communication is tiresome
Company of sorts
Disguised as friendship
Hollowness
A void beckoning for fullfillment
Look closely
Who we surround ourselves with
Creates not only thier destiny
But that of your own sweet soul.
610 · May 2012
A little of your time
Rai May 2012
You twisted my words
How nicely you made it seem
As though I was the one
Who had turned to ice before your heart had melted
Sorry is a strange land
It lives somewhere between denial and acceptance
Is a truth worth the burdon of unhappiness
I will take back all that was mine
And hold my own face in my hands
Your palms were so warm for a while
against my tender skin
which beckoned for the touch of another
Tears fall
But im glad to be back in my own skin once more
I will turn the music up far too loud
And dance in my mind to the journey that will now begin
Never an ending to this madness
Thank you
Im not sure what ive learnt this time around
But thankyou all the same for
Spending a little time
Drinking a little wine
Dancing beneath the sheets
To the uncurable desire
Known as lust
When the dust settles
You may understand
But I doubt it ...
609 · Nov 2010
All that is me
Rai Nov 2010
Know what u get from me*

will always be from my true self
Because  thats who I am  and will always be

make me laugh
i'll laugh with you

make me cry
I'll try to explain to you why

If you mistake my kindness for weakness
Then you better watch out

Because if anyone crosses me*
They will  have heaven and hell to fight against

I am the daughter of the wind

The child of the fire

I will cool your sences

I will bring you to your knees

When I say that I love you
Please do not hurt me

Because you do not know what you are saying

And my pain and my strength can move mountains before the gates of heaven

I will see you again my friend
if not in this life
Then maybe the next

I have known you before in many different disguises

Each time I let you near, you crucify my soul

But in doing so
**You free me from the seed which gave me life
lovin it ....love my life , love that i have been given the wings in which my mind can fly , I am proud to call myself a Poet(ess) and would have it no other way
605 · Feb 2017
Online
Rai Feb 2017
When you fall in love
With a thought of a person
When you've never met
And you think there's something more
The cracks in you are filled
By a sideways smile
That shines though the words you read on a screen
And it's not real
And now you realise the cracks can never be filled
The cracks are what make you beautiful
But they also make you needy
And begging for more communication
Reading meanings in lines which in reality
Mean nothing more than nothing
How many of us beg and pray for just a little connection
In a world where we have forgotten how to interact
A world in which we fear to leave the comfort of our homes
In case the cold wind of reality comes biting
But the fear just like our mindless love affairs with words on screens
Isn't real
So open the door, walk through it
Hold out your hand and welcome a warm hand into yours
Now that kind of connection really is special
Live a little
Instead of dying online
603 · Nov 2010
Do you ?
Rai Nov 2010
Do you want me to hold you

in my arms

I thought you might i saw it in your eyes

would you like me to love you

with all of my charms

Your body language says it all

As you wrap me in your arms

Do you want me to stroke away your pain

Devour your desire

Set your world on fire

Would you like me to caress your soul

thoughout the night

We can read each others minds




If so just pm me and i'll be there before midnight



as if ...........get real !
copywrite 2010
602 · Oct 2015
Friendship lost and found
Rai Oct 2015
When friendships have been lost and found
Hunting wildly for common ground
Realisation that there's people out there
that have looked for you for so long
because they missed your friendship
It means so much
It touches my heart in ways I can't explain
Other than throuh my tears of feeling blessed
When someone sees your light
Even at times when it was the dullest
Decades go past
Your not forgotten
Your held dear within their heart
So dear they look through empty spaces
Searching under pebble and stone
Until at last your found
Today I feel very blessed ...
Today a friend I worked with 3 decades ago and haven't seen for 27 years came for lunch ... X
599 · Nov 2010
Disguise us
Rai Nov 2010
Crazy moments*

                           Forgotten within the fabric

                                                    
We interweave stars into our dreamtime*

                                                  Just so we know the truth

                         That lies beyond our disguise

                                                                    We never know

                                                                                         which way

                                                                                and how

                                                              But we know

                                         **We must
598 · Nov 2016
Within
Rai Nov 2016
The ever optimistic fool sits with sapphire teals rolling frantically from eyes which see too much
The heart that has been torn, tread upon and dragged in the dust can not bare the burden
So it rips apart,spilling it's ragged contents Into the gutter
There is nowhere left to run and your not really sure there's a need to leave
But a return back from this pessimism would be a delightful notion
As thoughts twist and turn
Like a never ending last spin on your noisy washer
Faster, more fragmented, frantic and free
The land has been freshly ploughed
The arguments are over
You have used your voice so as not to be seen as invisible
You may have spilled it all and god knows where we go from here
But it's certain that we will take not a step backwards in our endevour to be heard
Scratch an itch and it will get bigger
Keep picking at my scars and I will not be able to give you my free thinking happy mask that I manage to wear so well
So well indeed that I truly forgot this part of me ever existed
To stand upon the highest hill in the middle of a storm that could match my own
To meet my match in natures force
This alone will help me sleep
The dreams are so haunting
And I'm drowning in the neglectful thoughtlessness of  clowns
597 · Apr 2016
Burn
Rai Apr 2016
Do not touch my fragile skin
Your finger tips burn my soul
I do not need the love you hold in your heart
It is dark and wanting
You stray from the path
The wolf of fairy tales is your guide
Slowly step away from me
Take your sun from my eyes and your moon from my nights
I love only the earth below my feet
All else means that this is no longer fantasy
Burning desire
Blood dripping
Miracles are made when we forget to distrust
You wandered passed me
You turned your head
I so wish you had turn down a different road
I'm happy alone
Shall I shout that from the highest hill
IM HAPPY
Now roll back down and retrieve your crown of thorns
Righteousness dressed in evil disguise
Do not touch my fragile skin
Please look down and pass me by
Your sight upon me burns my soul
I can't live that way again
589 · Aug 2015
Dark places
Rai Aug 2015
There was no way out of this
She manoeuvred her body between a stone and a hard place
Picked up her hurting bones
And sighed
Relief ...
Anticipation and fear  running through her veins
How it came to this she couldn't even explain
shivering as a cold chill ran down her spine
Like the stumpy finger of jack frost etching out a delicate and
elaborate design  
Not a night to be out hunting or waiting around
But needs must
The sweet smell of redemption hung tantalizingly on a moment
Time was for surrendering all
Never looking behind
Stepping on stones
There was no way back from now
She turns quickly
A need to hold her breath
has her in a suffocating embrace
A shadow creeping the walls
Beckoning
Lost souls will sell their souls on nights as cold as
snow cover mountains
She breathes in
Closes her eyes and surrenders to the moment
She will awaken only when it is time
No cracks of light lye here
Not even from the broken street lamp
A shiver and a fall from grace*

Be it what you would create with your mind, be she a  ****** waiting for another loveless punter or a stalking blood thirsty vamp  in search of their fill, or maybe the cells  inside her are screaming for a sweet surrender from another corner drug seller .... maybe she is you or I or maybe she is a part of us all
589 · Jul 2013
T....
Rai Jul 2013
Battered emotions
Are not weighed
Against
This storm of distruction
Where to go from here
A nightmare come true

As angel wings carry you home
Sweet soul
Linger
In memories
Of golden dreams and hopes for the future

Pain
Dives into hearts
Pinning every emotion to the ground

Hold tight sweet child
Strong in soul
But weak of body

Hell knows me
Please release me from your grasp
I need to touch heaven*

I need to see you get home safely
586 · Nov 2010
Power
Rai Nov 2010
I am the Power
you switch on in your head
I am the power*
that helps you see red
I am supreme
delghtfully i scream*

Another moment
all is not as it may be

Power supply turning on

Buzzing noises

so strong

I cant get used to the din
No its nothing to do with
you or him

They said
Just push the switch
But at that moment i felt an itch
knocked it up to full power
the moment
you stepped in the shower

kazam kaboom
We all left the room

**I have the power
580 · Sep 2013
Lost
Rai Sep 2013
My tears flow back to the sea
Whilst my soul aches
and my hands shake
across keys which make words
into more than just a moments thought
Keep me safe here
Hold me tight
Because I thought I was safe
My heart hurts and I want someone to hold me close
Just for a moment
disguises  are falling apart
I will no longer lie to myself
I stretch my love across time and distance
I held on too tight
To something I had already turned to dust
The horizon is screaming me forward
Please release me
Please let me go now
For what more am I doing
Being untrue to myself
I loved you
But I never gave my all
Because I wanted to hold on to my senses
I held you
But in the back of my mind
I didn't let go long enough
To trust you
We never saved each other
We never shared our tears
Our fears
You never really knew me
Denial is such a suffocating condition
In this moment I realize
There's no one who needs to let go here
But myself* ....
580 · Jan 2013
Reflection of winter
Rai Jan 2013
Within the reflection of winter
I will send
The moon to watch over
Whilst you slumber perfectlly
Silver rays reach upon your pillow
And kiss you peacefully
As your dreams lay your soul bare
The sun to light your days
When moments become dark
And you find yourself
Alone within the stepping stones called life
I plucked stars from the sky
Did you see them disappear
Only to return
They will be a reminder that
By pinning your hopes and dreams
Into the weave of the universe
Then at last
You shall find peace
Between the moon ,the stars and sun
There sits understanding
Sipping tea with farther time
Creating dreams to blow your mind
Warm breezes brush your cheek
Another time
Another dream
Another lover
Another scene
From a sketch of a play
We forgot the lines too
576 · Mar 2017
Between the beats
Rai Mar 2017
My heart beats.
In moments that I don't try to understand
There you are once more,
Breathing in your darkness
Clawing the walls
Screaming for recognition.
I always thought I could walk away from this place.
I turn from you
Not anticipating
Unable to analyse
You said goodbye so many times
Once when you took your poetic knife and sliced my heart apart,
Blood dripping like rain
A mess to be cleared
And so it was.
Then when you left
And you left
And you left a space.
You walked away
One message,
One word,
One X ,
At a time.
Nothing was left.
Except the faint and faded sound of your breathe upon the screen.
And the silent scream of your torn soul aching.
Connections made
Ripped,
Jaggered
Edges.
Raw yet forgotten in time
Forgive me,
If only unconsciously.
In a moment
I feel you
In between a space.
Between the beats of my heart
And the breath upon my screen
Connections are so easily made and more easily severed
574 · Nov 2010
I wrote HATE upon the sand
Rai Nov 2010
I wrote HATE upon the sand
Carefully with stick in hand
I sat while time drew by
I felt so sad but didn’t cry
Hate takes all the pain away
so as my hate drains  to the sea
I found my self
I found me
The breeze was cool upon my skin
Thinking deep dark thoughts of nothing
And everything and all in-between
The longing that hatred took away
Was part of me and here I stayed
I whispered to you across the sea
I hate you for leaving me
I hate that I am all alone
I hate that my heart has turned to stone
Hatred uncompressed my all, my soul
I hated life
I yearned for death
Id reached the end, was on the edge
Within a sphere of hatred suspended
By a thread of understanding  
I don’t want to understand
I hate myself for understanding
And that’s why this all has to stop
When you hate your self it’s time to let go
So I wrote my HATE upon the sand
Carefully with stick in hand ............
copywrite 2010
571 · Nov 2010
Tell
Rai Nov 2010
So tell me

Do you really hate me

as much as you love me

or

was that just the way you play

Is it the way you hurt

and

the way you scream

When your angry

do you think of me

tell me

do you really love me this much

Or is it just a game we play

so we can remember

not to feel
copywrite 2010
570 · May 2013
Memories
Rai May 2013
I didn't need reminding
But you told me all the same
Great friends
What a laugh
I laugh
Then fall screaming
I never stopped hoping
I went through those old letters you sent
Summer nights
Sweet perfume filling the midnight air
Toes playing with the surf
As the breeze sweeps my hair
Back from my face
Captured in a photograph
I look so young
So free
So in love
Yet
So vunerable
Lines of love bleed onto the paper
Time never heals
It just sends us divertions
To cover the truth
It's hard to believe that young girl is me
I see myself differently
Through eyes that lost the tinted glass
Remembering
To replace the past where it lays
I move on to tomorrow
Then beyond
Life is sweeter
Life is worth living
Sleep now comes
568 · Jan 2012
Mindful desires
Rai Jan 2012
Your words are infinately sweeter
than the dew in which you bathe in at dawn
Smile
You smile
Silently hoping
For the world to swing on its axis

There he will be*
Standing tall

Alone

For he is your truth

Your ultimate

Your one

Saviour his love

**For tomorrows feast
Shall surely die before it is born within your mind's eye
558 · Mar 2015
This is how im feeling
Rai Mar 2015
Spiralling out of control in a downhill motion
Longing for anxiety to cease
This usual peaceful heart is beating irregularly
Unable to hold on to the slippery edge of reality in which one finds oneself
All she wants is for someone to really understand the stirrings of her soul
But alas no one comes close
A lover who never puts himself on the line
Everything set in stone because he does not like the human race that much at all
But she needs to feel needed
I guess that's what he lacks
He thinks she is an independent lady
Happy in her own skin
able to do without his arms to hold her as she leaves the last breath of the day behind her
He is not the one
That scares her because she wanted so much this time for this to be real
Hold fire for she is creating this
She knows better
But the yearnings inside are screaming
SCREAMING
and its tearing her apart
Some times we feel anxious but don't actually know why .. today is one of those kind of days
556 · Apr 2019
Past truths
Rai Apr 2019
When the price of togetherness becomes loneliness
Your path should be clear
Your heart is screaming for redemption
But you lower yourself below yourself
Scrambling
Clawing
But the end result will be the same
Best love yourself in solitude
Than hate your life in love
551 · Nov 2011
Sorry
Rai Nov 2011
Within whispers
I sit alone
Unable to be the person
You thought you'd found
The one to spread a rainbow before you
And savour the wild desire you bare
I'm sorry
You just seemed to want so much
The broken man
Who has never lived
And yet has been to every corner of his existence
So transparently you hold me close
Only when there is more to me than
What I seem to give you
Do you seem to care
I never said It would be easy
You never put me anywhere between being first
And right at the bottem of the pile
No I didnt want your money
It was never about that
Thats why I didnt take it from you
Love in its purity
Was that not enough
Did you not believe it to be true
Love never breeds boredom
Love flies with birds
And holds tight to a truth
that can never be seen with the naked eye
I dont know how long
But I know its not for ever
I know your never be my
Mr right
Cos Im just not the women
You want me to be
541 · Dec 2012
manifester
Rai Dec 2012
I am a master manifester
As we all are
Each thought
Each feeling
In every moment
Serves to recreate
Who I shall be
And what my next experience is to be
So with this is mind dear beloved
What is it
That we shall create within this moment
540 · Nov 2010
Little rai
Rai Nov 2010
Silently
Silently she wonders through your life
She smiles
Its rai
Our own little piece of sunshine

She spreads the sun where ever she goes
Looking for corners of darkness
that need her warming glow
here comes little rai
She always makes them smile
but deep inside rai's soul
where no one goes
and no one see's
there are nightmares
and demon's
that want to crucify her
They want to quench her light
So she will have to give up the fight
Little rai battles on
knowing
she will never let them win
As the moon hides the sun
so will rai hide the night
smile
it's little rai

and if it happens to rain
Little rai will shine through
and a rainbow will appear
to brighten up your day
I will warm your mind and soul and make you smile ...... from little rai
539 · Feb 2011
Tide
Rai Feb 2011
My mind tonight is blank

Swimming against the tide of life

Or was it the pool of circumstance

I'm really not sure anymore

But i think i enjoyed

Dipping my toes

When the sea came to meet the shore
cpy;2011
531 · Dec 2012
Illusions
Rai Dec 2012
What is your concept of broken
A man's mind can become fragmented
Sometimes one glimpes the illusion we live in
Only to retreat into the blindness
They find comfortable
Controllable
I have lived with many a broken man
But they taught me well
I found my strength
I realised
That though we seem torn apart
Broken hearts bleeding for comfort
We are all just where we are ment to be
Manifestations of our inner worlds
Tears fall
Skin is cut
Suicide brings comfort
A soul spurs towards the light
As unbroken
As the day it stepped upon this earth
Rai Aug 2017
Do not hold back the fire that bore your soul my child
Or the darkness which tore you apart
It is the making of the man
The remembering of the soul’s call

The smell of gasoline is heavenly to my senses
Pavements rainbows
In metallic hues of loneliness laid bare
This god dam awful place
Full of virgins and nuns
Thy neighbour is holier than thou
Get down on your knees son
It’s time to pray

Where will be your salvation
But in the cries of a mocking bird
Shot dead at dawn
To relive on the horizons crest
Cry not
for sorrow has a new bed fellow
Anger leads me into temptation
My tears are my only release
Bring me back now
Please let me be forgiven

As in truth I am the same
The same as you and her and him
We are all interconnected

My sorrow is found in your lies
As your smile is found on my lips
Your guilt is nowhere to be seen
Because I have hidden it well
Between the seams of my soul
511 · Oct 2013
Breath of the soul
Rai Oct 2013
Tranquil moments alone with the silence
Escaping from the noise
Which seems to be constantly buzzing around my head
A  sign
Obscure in meaning
And yet needing to be placed where the multitude can take heed
See me coming and hide for cover if you wish
Silence echo's like a distant drum beat
Where you find your peace you will also feel your soul
Breathing
Silently without a murmur
Breathing in time with it all
Breathing
Your way home
To the silence within
506 · Jun 2017
Connections lost and found
Rai Jun 2017
It changed
The day you left
I know it was a gradual submission
But it felt so final
We searched under every pebble
Looked within ourselves
Delved into our scar torn hearts
For a reason why you would of left
Not here
Not this place
But us
ALl OF US
Because it wasn't just me
That you shared your worries with
It wasn't just me
That you took into your trust zone
We all became a circle
Inter linked
One and all
Until it crumbled
We still have so much love here
Across ponds and oceans
Desserts and highways
Interconnected
We would still welcome you back with open hearts and open minds
After all
Your tribe is your tribe
Whatever reason they ran
If only to hide from themselves
From thier truths
Or maybe in search of something to fill the void
I love the way that after so long we still remember
And in rememberence it shall be
You turnt our lives upside down
Sticking us together
One strand of friendship
One doff of the hat
One large slice of chocolate cake
And a friendly smile and conversation
At the end of the day
When you aimlessly wander the archives and start remembering how it used to be ..... Brings a tear to your eye and an ache to your heart ... X
506 · Oct 2015
Cycles
Rai Oct 2015
Mist rising heavily in ice cold eyes
Darkness falling
Summer surrenders to the call of winter and you
bury your soul amongst fallen leaves and lost lovers
I tier of this game
Hands held high
I recoil and turn inwards
simplistic notions of who I should be
Death of yesterday yesteryear
The realisation that movement is necessary
The completion
The renewal
The end and yet the beginning
499 · May 2013
Mistake
Rai May 2013
I walked away
You never followed
I thought you would
But I guess I wasn't so worth fighting for afterall
You know something
*I think you made a big mistake
497 · Jan 2012
Simple
Rai Jan 2012
Simplicity in moments
Moments
of simplicity
When movement
Ceases
And silence reigns
In hearts so free
Simplicity
In all things
Simplicity
In moments
When  to me
It seems all things
Mean nothing at all
496 · Nov 2015
Enough
Rai Nov 2015
Enough now
Your tears are scorching my face
Enough said
As we distroy the human race
Enough now
As my heart is open wide
Enough said
When I see the child huddled by your side
Enough now
Of this hatred and pain
Enough said
As our families die this way
Enough now
Lay you down to sleep
Enough said
Karma will be a sweet retreat
490 · Nov 2010
LIFE IS FEELING RATHER
Rai Nov 2010
NOISEY

life is feeling rather

WHY CAN'T U JUST SHUT UP*

What a mouth on it*

SCREAMING

always ****** screaming

I CAN'T DO THIS

Why did i come here

HELP ME

Why do you need help please just be quiet

I NEED HELP BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM

maybe if you stayed quiet for a moment you would know who you are

SO EASY FOR YOU TO SAY

Whats that meant to mean

I'M  A TEENAGER NOT A *****

Dinners ready - who are you talking to up there

NO ONE  MUM , WAS JUST TALKIN TO ME SELF
copywrite 2010
488 · Nov 2010
This is my message
Rai Nov 2010
There is
Beauty in this world
look close and you will see it
listen silently and you may hear it
Use your hands to touch
Open your heart so you might find it
This is my message
Believe and you can create all that you wish to have in your life
Let not past regrets close your heart
Let not the ugly of the world make you close your eyes to beauty
May you not close your ears to the songbirds sweet melody
May you use your hands to hold the ones you love
Find the strength to stand tall
And your world will become beautiful and meaningful
This is my message to you all
cpy;2010
488 · Nov 2010
Think
Rai Nov 2010
I  think it is strange when people change

in ways you are unable to explain

Was there always a ticking in their head

wanting to excape all the hum drum they've created
479 · Sep 2012
Self
Rai Sep 2012
Pale reflections
Shadows that linger longer
New understandings
In an already muddled mind
Madness comes easy to the man
who holds the centre of the world in his palms
Before you turn from me
Without reason
Remember what you were doing here in the first place
Cry to release what you know you can not hold onto
You lie so sweetly
To your self you are only the fool at the edge
Hold me
For I am no stronger than the man you see in the mirror
And only when you accept yourself
Will I admit that you are the better part of me
470 · Jun 2015
Absent lover
Rai Jun 2015
When I was a child I thought life would be simple
Grow up
find yourself a prince
Then settle into a life which fills up all your desires
Hopes and wishes
Time was mistreated and now years later
Bones crushed and mended
Bruises faded and gone
Tears in my heart still hurt
Because I never did it right
Never found my prince
Many a frog in prince's clothing have come my way
To tease the very thought of love
To beckon and not deliver
To love and to leave
Now I am in limbo
A partner who lives in his own shell
Un needing for a life of companionship
Work and responsibilities taking up precious time
I feel alone so many times and I cant stand it
A hand to hold for just a moment
Moments are fleeting but few
But what else can there be
I fight with my feelings of unworthiness
Or my neediness
But wanting a lover and companion for more than one day in a fortnight surely that's not strange and clingy or needy
Maybe I'm just not cut out for this
I love him
But he never lays his hand upon my cheek whilst I cry
He never rubs my shoulders when they are sore
And he is not there for me to give the love I have in my heart
A crossroads
Tears fall and splash list fully upon my cheek bones
And then I will carry on living the single but not quite single life
Which comes with the absent lover
468 · May 2013
B ......lieve
Rai May 2013
Dare to believe

It's the new dimention in understanding*

Dare to believe*

**What do you have to loose
467 · Oct 2014
Complete
Rai Oct 2014
You hold me so close
Sometimes it takes my breath away
Hold me now and never let go
Some times I fear the future
Because its something we never discuss
Its like a wall that we need to climb
So close and yet
Give me a foot up and Ill look over
I promise you will be the first to know
If I have the guts to tell my truths
Entwined in your arms
You are like the missing piece to my puzzle
I don't think I ever want to stop loving you
There is no escape from this place
Motivation is zero
Movement only takes us closer
Only a promise of tomorrow can break this spell
And so be it
I love hard
And fall harder still
You mesmerise me
Like a feeling of enlightened after a spiritual journey
Sometimes I feel vulnerable  
Not sure where this is leading
But unable to let go
Unwilling to ask questions
of what lies beyond the thoughts that you hold
Warmth lingers
Until tomorrow my lover
I would wait a million tomorrows
If I knew for sure you would be here
One last piece of my puzzle
And I am complete
464 · May 2023
Above me
Rai May 2023
A billion stars lay twinkling above me in the dark void of the night.

I searched for eternity
There are no answers here
463 · Oct 2014
Train Wreckage
Rai Oct 2014
So I want to write a book
I want to place all the words
My soul has bleed and splattered onto these walls
Into something I can hold
God dam emotional journey going on in my head  
Pulling up all this ****
Is making me an emotional train wreckage
461 · Feb 2016
Deeper
Rai Feb 2016
Sink deeper
Love longer
Hold on tighter
Force fed desire
Projectile your words off all corners
Then cling steadfast
Enduring
Tantalising moments
Without the helpless need to surrender
Then free fall backwards
Downwards
Spiralling staircases
Memours so simply spoken
Crashing onto concrete
Disappearing
Without a trace
Then silence
Surrounding
Every living cell
Breathing
Life source
Lights blinding
Thunder rolling
Halting
Dying
Leaves falling
Comforting
Softness
Hands holding
Remembering
The deeper we travel
The further we go
Surrender
Realise
Be
459 · Oct 2015
Beautiful imperfections
Rai Oct 2015
She stands like a porcelain mannequin in some elite boutique*
Beautifully attired in the latest style
She moves with grace and emulates sophistication

She lowers her eyes from her mirrored reflection
Where we  see perfection
She only sees flaws

Sinking down lower
She leaves cuts
A tortured soul in a beautiful frame
Pain muffles pain

He stands receiving his medal for
Bravery and courage

A man a country can be proud to call their own
A battle won
A hero born


He lowers his eyes from the crowd
His internal battle holding him hostage
When his guilt leaves him begging in the gutter
Will you toss him a coin
Or walk on by?

Another vagabond beggar
No more than
Dirt on your feet

The same feet that walk
The very streets he made free


The child with the sparkle in their eyes
When asked what they would like to be
when they grow up

Silently reflects
With cancer riddling their bones it's not a question
They wish to ponder
But their four year old sister pushes on
Unaware that this could be their last Christmas

A time traveller of course
That way I could live forever

As long as I keep going back
To before
Or maybe forward to when they have a cure

But never worry I'll always be with you in spirit
When my body has gone

Maybe when I grow older I shall be your gardian Angel
And so it is
All imperfections are timeless
But we will not see them
Unless they are our own of course
It is then that we need to remember
**Our imperfections are what make us unique
456 · Aug 2014
Rain bow
Rai Aug 2014
Prisms
like drops of rain
fall in a bow
of colour
455 · Aug 2015
In my corner no one notices
Rai Aug 2015
Dark forces beckon
Pulling me down roughly
Into a cassom of feverish memories
He left because
Because he would rather be alone than be with
Someone who wants
Needs just a fragment more than he is able to give
God dam life ***** at times
Tears only fall when I allow myself a moments worth of self pity
All around me see that I'm doing fine
Never mentioning his name
Smile on face
Always the one to deal with the brunt of everyone else's needs
Come now who needs me next
Come take another piece
I'm sure there is plenty of me to go around
I find myself so small and needy at times
But put out your hand my friend
I feel your pain
It was my destiny to find you and make you whole
Do you trust all that I say
Then come sit in this corner a while
We can rock together
Mindlessness and misunderstanding
Narrow minds and yesterday's tears
It should be a great way of getting to know each other don't you agree ?
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