like icecream
So sweet and yet
So cold
You are melting in moments
Before heaven excapes you
Bliss
To feel
To know
To reason with self
That all the reasons you have chosen are you own
So cold like ice
Touch me
With words
Between sentences
That surely couid never belong to just one soul

You twisted my words
How nicely you made it seem
As though I was the one
Who had turned to ice before your heart had melted
Sorry is a strange land
It lives somewhere between denial and acceptance
Is a truth worth the burdon of unhappiness
I will take back all that was mine
And hold my own face in my hands
Your palms were so warm for a while
against my tender skin
which beckoned for the touch of another
Tears fall
But im glad to be back in my own skin once more
I will turn the music up far too loud
And dance in my mind to the journey that will now begin
Never an ending to this madness
Thank you
Im not sure what ive learnt this time around
But thankyou all the same for
Spending a little time
Drinking a little wine
Dancing beneath the sheets
To the uncurable desire
Known as lust
When the dust settles
You may understand
But I doubt it ...

Simplicity in moments
Moments
of simplicity
When movement
Ceases
And silence reigns
In hearts so free
Simplicity
In all things
Simplicity
In moments
When  to me
It seems all things
Mean nothing at all

She wove baskets for a living
Simple lass
Not a penny to her name
But a heart so free
She found her happiness
Floating on the breeze
That held onto her memories
Of a time when

He came full of wealth
Missing something all his life
He saw it in her eyes
A heart so caged
Waiting to be set free

Whisper on the breeze of understanding
As you looked  into her eyes
Sapphire glances
Sadness so complete
As strangers do pass
A match of a kind
But he was so blind

He saw kindness
A face porcelain laid
Dark hair cascading
In ringlets
Dancing onto her shoulder’s so bare
He wanted her too much

When he looked into those diamond eyes
Her rags became another’s disguise
But when he awoke
His mind played a snobbish joke
How dare she look upon his face?
Tantalising
*****
Fool
Fake
How dare she tempt him
With her sapphire sweetness
And pureness of heart

Poor child
She saw his fear
She saw him
Caged
She felt him
Poor child
Who had fallen from a moment’s grace?

Some day she will wear diamonds and pearls
Someday this child will rule the world
One day the noble man will fall a fool
Never to stare into the golden pool

She was an angel
Come to test
The rest of the tale is now
Laid to rest

You come creeping in
cut me down
You would rather call me lier
Than know the truth
Looking sidewards
When met by my truths you close your mind
Not wanting to know
I saw you
walking  dusty roads to forget the meaning
fragmented lines of meaningless segments
haunted like a child abandoned to the wind
I will not turn into the hollow frame
I once was
You filled my soul
Made me fly
And yet
Where are you now
Memories hold
Sunshine
Which flickers through shadows
I so yearn for more than I have now
Please
Just please is all I have to say  
Before tomorrow engolfs me once more

Within whispers
I sit alone
Unable to be the person
You thought you'd found
The one to spread a rainbow before you
And savour the wild desire you bare
I'm sorry
You just seemed to want so much
The broken man
Who has never lived
And yet has been to every corner of his existence
So transparently you hold me close
Only when there is more to me than
What I seem to give you
Do you seem to care
I never said It would be easy
You never put me anywhere between being first
And right at the bottem of the pile
No I didnt want your money
It was never about that
Thats why I didnt take it from you
Love in its purity
Was that not enough
Did you not believe it to be true
Love never breeds boredom
Love flies with birds
And holds tight to a truth
that can never be seen with the naked eye
I dont know how long
But I know its not for ever
I know your never be my
Mr right
Cos Im just not the women
You want me to be

The coffee cup holds memories of last nights lipstick
Passion and fire
The desire to be wanted more
Clings to the recesses of my heart strings
He left early
Quietly slipping away before the morning
Could bring new arrangments
In an already disorganised life

Shrugging off the mild feeling of rejection
She stretches her arms up high
And breathes in all the goodness that
Is her life

Strange moments when desire meets its destination
How strange that she would not have it any other way

Morning brings rays of sunshine that bounce against the
Prisms that hang around the room inside her heart
The momentary awareness makes her realise
She misses her friends
It is time to catch the train back home

Oh how she loves the feeling of new beginings
Reuniting with who she really is
And who she has become

There are many desire's she harbour's in her bay of understanding
If you allow her to teather her boat
for a while upon your shore
You will smile with the child within her eyes
And she will hold on tight
Whilst she bathes with you
Within an ocean so blue

She wants to feel the softness of feathers upon the tips of her toes
Reaching out for comfort that will surely come
Caresses the moments before midnight
With suger kisses so sweet
Like honey coated forgiveness
She smiles into her lovers eyes of crystal dew
Beyond
Her sences reeling
Twirling, dancing
Like the figurine within an ancient music box
As the music surrounds the childs mind so pure
And yet
There is more captured within
The sweetness is soured only by memories
She paints with fingers in the suger
To forget
There are things so worth forgetting
She sees him sleeping and places
mirrors where his eyes once looked upon her
For now she will see herself
The way he see's
The blood from the girl child dried as he slept
There was to be no more sugered moments
No more honey for him to savour
she had seen
Her worth in his eyes
Such a shame sweet child
She should of loved herself with toes touching feathers
Reaching for a comfort
That would only be found in forgiveness of self
Far beyond the place he sleeps
With mirrored eyes of crystal dew

He awakes to find his beloved drenthed in death
He reaches for moments which never come
Her projection of him so false upon this moment
As in a moments seperation
She sees with her angel presence
The suger he tastes on lips so pure
His tears now mingle with the blood
As he tears her mirrors from his eyes
He understands not
The reason
Why white feathers are falling from the sky

I stretch my arms up
to the sky
And let the light of the sun
consume all that it desires
Taking and renewing
All that is me

She was hoping for a little peace
to warm her busy sharlet day
but the grey city loomed heavy on her mind
And though the  black birds sang sweeter
Today it seemed to annoy her
Shades of green swayed outside her window
Whilst white cotten clouds swam
In a sea of tranquil blue
But still
All she saw was grey

My mind tonight is blank

Swimming against the tide of life

Or was it the pool of circumstance

I'm really not sure anymore

But i think i enjoyed

Dipping my toes

When the sea came to meet the shore

I always remember the man
from the chitti chitti bang bang film
you know the one  
he lured the children out of the
toy makers shop with candy and lollipops
He scared me senceless
With his tall hat
and pointy long noise
I have met a lot of people like him in my life
They tempt you with
Whatever it is they think you want
And then just when they think
You are weak
They catch you in thier trap
I always loved that film
Just as I love my life
Wish i could forget
That man in the tall hat
With the long noise
If I watched it now
He would still make me feel the same

Today i took all sharp objects
And put them in a bag
With a draw string
And pulled it tight
Then put it away somewhere safe

Theres no way I can chuck these things away
What happens when i need to slice the bread
If I have no knife
Will I have to tare at the loaf like the knife tares my skin
Still being reminded of the reason why I havn't got the knife
And what happens when i need to draw a circle
Will the plate be ok to draw around
but what if the plates too big
Will i get frustrated and smash the plate
Making more sharpe edges to play with
What if the screws need turning to make them tight
Will the ***** driver find its way into my hand
Will the screws get tightened
Will I wonder the nail look more inviting than the driver
Will i place it back in the bag
thats the question I ask my self

And you look into my eyes and say
this bag is not here to keep these things from you
Its just here to remind you to put them away
To keep them out of sight
Until you really need them

So I want to know
Why With the pen (which I know is sharp)
have you placed a notepad in the bag
How can the note pad hurt me ?

I look deep
And sweet poetess you know the answer
There may be no god today
There may be no blue skies
No rainbows to warm your soul
No sunshine
Only rain and the bitterness of life
But with the pen and paper you can create
Your own world
Full of magic and belief
shooting stars and beautiful dreams
Or you may just wish to slash at the pages
with the pen and pretend the paper is your wrist

I my self would like for you to spit your pain upon
the sheets of paper so i know how your feeling
And when i know how your feeling
I can try to give the words you need

Be it only to know that some one
gives a dam
about how your feeling right now

She knows all the ways to make you crave her
She knows every move to keep you close
She holds the binding threads of your heart in her hands
And pulls them tight to stay in control

She knows the force to make you stay here
She cast her spell
She boiled her brew
You drank the poison from her cuplet
Now you will never let her go

The flowers of spring lay on her pillow
So devinely sweet is she
You would hold her by her heart strings
You would cast your spell of love

She knows not how she came to be here
Skin next to yours upon your bed
Soft as silk you kiss her forehead
The poison given goes to her head

Once bound by love
You both will know now
The ties you both have bound so well
Each other cast unto the other
Silken flowers take a bow


Be one with earth and sky and heaven
Holding back is no longer a choise
cast your spells in yonder cauldron
Drink from each others cuplets
Poison travels through yur blood

Now you are bound
By the laws of each other
sacred to those who believe
Hold on tight through out your life
In time the binds will loosen and
your love will freely grow

To be for a moment
In the glory of your smile
Sweet in rememberence
But so sad in knowing the truth
The truth that lies behind
Those beautiful eyes

I have problems

But at least i wont sleep outside tonight

The bills didnt get paid

But at least i have a house

It cold out side

How many shop doorways have heating ?

Theres snow on the ground

and ice in his hair

He didnt make the night

He died from the cold

Tell me you care ...

I love the way my hair feels when i submerge myself under water

I love the way you smell when i nestle into the side of your neck

So sweet but musky all the same

I love the way you turn me down when I'm being nothing but a spoilt brat

I love that

I love that your the only man that has ever stood their ground

I love that you wouldnt let anyone hurt me and youd rather walk out

on a friend than see me be put down

I needed that

I love that when your around I feel safe in your embrace

I love that closeness that i cherish beyond all else

I love how you never say good bye but see u soon

Goodbye is too final you said and we are forever

So forever we will stay

I love you for not being perfect

because i like the madness it makes you special

It makes you unique

It makes you mine

I love how you  give me flowers you said you got them off the

grave of some ole man; I really didnt mind

I love how you whisper in my ear before I fall into sleep

I also love when you turn my face to yours and call me your beloved

You women , your everything ,your wife*

**I love how my mind plays tricks on me while I write these lines

For a moment I even thought you were real

Sinking teeth

Flesh so smooth upon my  touch

creature of the night

beckon forth and love

my wounded heart

blood drips slowly

quickly the fear is replaced

by the wanting

of tyne flesh

I shall now feed

and be whole once more

Silently
Silently she wonders through your life
She smiles
Its rai
Our own little piece of sunshine
She spreads the sun where ever she goes
Looking for corners of darkness
that need her warming glow
here comes little rai
She always makes them smile
but deep inside rai's soul
where no one goes
and no one see's
there are nightmares
and demon's
that want to crucify her
They want to quench her light
So she will have to give up the fight
Little rai battles on
knowing
she will never let them win
As the moon hides the sun
so will rai hide the night
smile
it's little rai
and if it happens to rain
Little rai will shine through
and a rainbow will appear
to brighten up your day

This silence holds me and  
I learn to breathe
and as night falls
the lake  
Glistens in all its majestic glory
I see the ripples on the water
fish rise  gasping for air
And as this silence holds me
I learn to breathe

I have no words
Only feelings
My poetess is screaming
Angry
But in understanding
It is time
To say goodbye
A silent tear
No one will
Ever see me cry
Why do i have to always
Feel so much
So deep
Spirit ripped
Connection severed
To a heart already feathered
Now i have found my pain
Again
Must my poetess
Keep singing
The melodies in my mind
To the end of time  
Farewell my friend

There is
Beauty in this world
look close and you will see it
listen silently and you may hear it
Use your hands to touch
Open your heart so you might find it
This is my message
Believe and you can create all that you wish to have in your life
Let not past regrets close your heart
Let not the ugly of the world make you close your eyes to beauty
May you not close your ears to the songbirds sweet melody
May you use your hands to hold the ones you love
Find the strength to stand tall
And your world will become beautiful and meaningful
This is my message to you all

Tenderness flawed by the endless need
to hold on to your own sanity
I turned to look for you
But saw nothing
A desert stretched out before me
It felt as though death had
buried you before my return
No face
Where faces loomed
No presence to fill the gloom
Tenderness within the silk of the hour
was surely mine to bestow

So tell me

Do you really hate me

as much as you love me

or

was that just the way you play

Is it the way you hurt

and

the way you scream

When your angry

do you think of me

tell me

do you really love me this much

Or is it just a game we play

so we can remember

not to feel

My mind is quiet

need for grounding

poetess in slumber

No thoughts pass between us

I will let her sleep now

My emotions have exausted her

Sleep humble lady of mine own creation

and thankyou for rising above

and teaching me how to fly.

NOISEY

life is feeling rather

WHY CAN'T U JUST SHUT UP*

What a mouth on it*

SCREAMING

always ****** screaming

I CAN'T DO THIS

Why did i come here

HELP ME

Why do you need help please just be quiet

I NEED HELP BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM

maybe if you stayed quiet for a moment you would know who you are

SO EASY FOR YOU TO SAY

Whats that meant to mean

I'M  A TEENAGER NOT A *****

Dinners ready - who are you talking to up there

NO ONE  MUM , WAS JUST TALKIN TO ME SELF

I  am your Mighty dragon from within

boundlessly

hopingly

knowingly

I sour above this

maddening crowd

Trying to protect my lady

Guyums soldiers come

he wants to steel her beauty for his own

her soul is made from gems so pure

Diamond pools surround her palace

Great dragon of spirits protects and  

surveys all she  has created

Woodships wait to sail

fairy maidens their wings do polish

Hobbits and men come forth

ready for the battle to come

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man of my own breathe

Be beside me

love will quench the fire and

storm that rages on the other side  

The salt celler is full

go sprinkle around your havens

protect we must from the dark priest

White stallons take thye knights and

warn the great lord of our arrival

I need the help of the bright side

The walls will come come down

before the night turns to dawn

But

beware false prophersy

for it is sure to blind thee

and trust no one until you return to the fold

Be gone now from me great warriers

God some people **** my body

It  brings moments of satisfaction

but not much else

God some people **** my brain

its brings nothing that feels like satisfaction

but i learn so much from them

Crazy moments*

                           Forgotten within the fabric

                                                    We interweave stars into our dreamtime*

                                                  Just so we know the truth

                         That lies beyond our disguise

                                                                    We never know

                                                                                         which way

                                                                                and how

                                                              But we know

                                         **We must

Know what u get from me*

will always be from my true self
Because  thats who I am  and will always be

make me laugh
i'll laugh with you

make me cry
I'll try to explain to you why

If you mistake my kindness for weakness
Then you better watch out

Because if anyone crosses me*
They will  have heaven and hell to fight against

I am the daughter of the wind

The child of the fire

I will cool your sences

I will bring you to your knees

When I say that I love you
Please do not hurt me

Because you do not know what you are saying

And my pain and my strength can move mountains before the gates of heaven

I will see you again my friend
if not in this life
Then maybe the next

I have known you before in many different disguises

Each time I let you near, you crucify my soul

But in doing so
**You free me from the seed which gave me life

I  think it is strange when people change

in ways you are unable to explain

Was there always a ticking in their head

wanting to excape all the hum drum they've created

I am the Power
you switch on in your head
I am the power*
that helps you see red
I am supreme
delghtfully i scream*

Another moment
all is not as it may be

Power supply turning on

Buzzing noises

so strong

I cant get used to the din
No its nothing to do with
you or him

They said
Just push the switch
But at that moment i felt an itch
knocked it up to full power
the moment
you stepped in the shower

kazam kaboom
We all left the room

**I have the power

I wrote HATE upon the sand
Carefully with stick in hand
I sat while time drew by
I felt so sad but didn’t cry
Hate takes all the pain away
so as my hate drains  to the sea
I found my self
I found me
The breeze was cool upon my skin
Thinking deep dark thoughts of nothing
And everything and all in-between
The longing that hatred took away
Was part of me and here I stayed
I whispered to you across the sea
I hate you for leaving me
I hate that I am all alone
I hate that my heart has turned to stone
Hatred uncompressed my all, my soul
I hated life
I yearned for death
Id reached the end, was on the edge
Within a sphere of hatred suspended
By a thread of understanding  
I don’t want to understand
I hate myself for understanding
And that’s why this all has to stop
When you hate your self it’s time to let go
So I wrote my HATE upon the sand
Carefully with stick in hand ............

If i close my eyes

I can see beyond the void

And into the vortex

Its warm  there

like a child

I crawl in slowly

Believing

The world

Is on my side

I feel safe

Here i may stay until

like a flower

The summer ends

And i die

Leaving only my seeds

Beautiful creation

Renewable power

The belief that miracles lie

At the centre of this vortex

Therefore there is

Always

Hope for another moment

As a flower

Within all of this existence