She was hoping for a little peace
to warm her busy sharlet day
but the grey city loomed heavy on her mind
And though the  black birds sang sweeter
Today it seemed to annoy her
Shades of green swayed outside her window
Whilst white cotten clouds swam
In a sea of tranquil blue
But still
All she saw was grey

My mind tonight is blank

Swimming against the tide of life

Or was it the pool of circumstance

I'm really not sure anymore

But i think i enjoyed

Dipping my toes

When the sea came to meet the shore

I always remember the man
from the chitti chitti bang bang film
you know the one  
he lured the children out of the
toy makers shop with candy and lollipops
He scared me senceless
With his tall hat
and pointy long noise
I have met a lot of people like him in my life
They tempt you with
Whatever it is they think you want
And then just when they think
You are weak
They catch you in thier trap
I always loved that film
Just as I love my life
Wish i could forget
That man in the tall hat
With the long noise
If I watched it now
He would still make me feel the same

Today i took all sharp objects
And put them in a bag
With a draw string
And pulled it tight
Then put it away somewhere safe

Theres no way I can chuck these things away
What happens when i need to slice the bread
If I have no knife
Will I have to tare at the loaf like the knife tares my skin
Still being reminded of the reason why I havn't got the knife
And what happens when i need to draw a circle
Will the plate be ok to draw around
but what if the plates too big
Will i get frustrated and smash the plate
Making more sharpe edges to play with
What if the screws need turning to make them tight
Will the ***** driver find its way into my hand
Will the screws get tightened
Will I wonder the nail look more inviting than the driver
Will i place it back in the bag
thats the question I ask my self

And you look into my eyes and say
this bag is not here to keep these things from you
Its just here to remind you to put them away
To keep them out of sight
Until you really need them

So I want to know
Why With the pen (which I know is sharp)
have you placed a notepad in the bag
How can the note pad hurt me ?

I look deep
And sweet poetess you know the answer
There may be no god today
There may be no blue skies
No rainbows to warm your soul
No sunshine
Only rain and the bitterness of life
But with the pen and paper you can create
Your own world
Full of magic and belief
shooting stars and beautiful dreams
Or you may just wish to slash at the pages
with the pen and pretend the paper is your wrist

I my self would like for you to spit your pain upon
the sheets of paper so i know how your feeling
And when i know how your feeling
I can try to give the words you need

Be it only to know that some one
gives a dam
about how your feeling right now

She knows all the ways to make you crave her
She knows every move to keep you close
She holds the binding threads of your heart in her hands
And pulls them tight to stay in control

She knows the force to make you stay here
She cast her spell
She boiled her brew
You drank the poison from her cuplet
Now you will never let her go

The flowers of spring lay on her pillow
So devinely sweet is she
You would hold her by her heart strings
You would cast your spell of love

She knows not how she came to be here
Skin next to yours upon your bed
Soft as silk you kiss her forehead
The poison given goes to her head

Once bound by love
You both will know now
The ties you both have bound so well
Each other cast unto the other
Silken flowers take a bow


Be one with earth and sky and heaven
Holding back is no longer a choise
cast your spells in yonder cauldron
Drink from each others cuplets
Poison travels through yur blood

Now you are bound
By the laws of each other
sacred to those who believe
Hold on tight through out your life
In time the binds will loosen and
your love will freely grow

To be for a moment
In the glory of your smile
Sweet in rememberence
But so sad in knowing the truth
The truth that lies behind
Those beautiful eyes