Rai - Hello Poetry

Rai Dec 2010

Twisted fate meant they missed each other walking the same street within minutes of each other
Twisted fate led her down a one way street
With no one to turn to for help
She never imagined life could be so hard
She needed the thing that
Twisted fate decided she couldnt have
If life had a heart
She would still hear it beating
There would of been that fateful meating
Of minds so alike
Vibrant in understanding
And glorious in technicolour dreams
Twisted fate had so much to explain right at that moment
Maybe they missed the signs
The man who picked up her paper and opened the door with such ease
Her searching smile looking for understanding
But finding a wall of fear
So she still walks alone
And him
He walked into the middle of the road
No longer caring for a life without love
Sadly Twisted fate delt him his final card
Funny how life continues regardless of its mistakes

cpy:2010

Rai Dec 2010

possession

Fragmented and broken
This warn body lies upon the floor
Not understanding
That to change this
All I need to do is crawl
Softly
Creep silently
Into the heart
Of the nearest stranger
This body has served it purpose
Time to move on
*possession is sweet

Rai Dec 2010

Outside

I have problems

But at least i wont sleep outside tonight

The bills didnt get paid

But at least i have a house

It cold out side

How many shop doorways have heating ?

Theres snow on the ground

and ice in his hair

He didnt make the night

He died from the cold

Tell me you care ...

cpy:2010 This sort of **** really shouldnt happen

Rai Nov 2010

Poison

I am your addiction
Your poison
Your hell fire
I am the reason
You cry in the night

I asked you for peace
But you just dont stop talking
I think i am mad
Please leave me alone

You drive me to distraction

Stories of love
That im not even thinking
Wishe's for a life that is not my own
Distant shores beckon
Will i explore them
You know that i wont
So please leave me alone

I am your drug
I won't release you
What would you be
If i left you alone

cpy:2010

Rai Nov 2010

12

12 poems in a day

and my addiction

is past my denial stage

oh my when I finish

this will be 13

There is no hope

for I like it this way

My hands hurt from pumping the keys on the board

but hey every addiction has its price

And my head ever spins

In conversations I am becoming more poetic

My whole outlook

The snow glistens on the ground

When most people are worrying about the cold

I see exagerated beauty or ugliness

I go shopping to ground myself

I do job searches on line

hey I'm back here again

I thought facebook was addictive

but then i came here

and it became clear

In this poetry asylum I'll

probably rot

but happily i wish to mention

Rai Nov 2010

I love the way

I love the way my hair feels when i submerge myself under water

I love the way you smell when i nestle into the side of your neck

So sweet but musky all the same

I love the way you turn me down when I'm being nothing but a spoilt brat

I love that

I love that your the only man that has ever stood their ground

I love that you wouldnt let anyone hurt me and youd rather walk out

on a friend than see me be put down

I needed that

I love that when your around I feel safe in your embrace

I love that closeness that i cherish beyond all else

I love how you never say good bye but see u soon

Goodbye is too final you said and we are forever

So forever we will stay

I love you for not being perfect

because i like the madness it makes you special

It makes you unique

It makes you mine

I love how you give me flowers you said you got them off the

grave of some ole man; I really didnt mind

I love how you whisper in my ear before I fall into sleep

I also love when you turn my face to yours and call me your beloved

You women , your everything ,your wife*

**I love how my mind plays tricks on me while I write these lines

For a moment I even thought you were real

Rai Nov 2010

HELP!

GOD HELP ME*

As the water covers my face and swollows up my breath

As the softness of the pillow placed over my face

starves me of life giving oxygen*

HELP ME

why didnt you come

As he held my face down

it hurts god .....it hurts!

HELP

Me when I stumble

Left with so much pain

I fall unto myself forgetting who I am

ME

I dont want to feel this pain

WHY COULDN'T YOU HELP ME GOD

then i wouldnt be sitting here with tears

running down my sorry face

ME

it's me god remember

DO YOU REMEMBER?

why the hell is it you never answer me?

And as the life runs from my body

God held my face to the ground

he held me as the water swollowed my breath

And he placed the pillow over my face

SO WHY DID HE MAKE ME BEG FOR LIFE ?

why did he try to **** me inside?

well i'm tellin you

I kicked

I screamed

And I never for a moment believed in you

WHY?

*I don't think I need to answer that

cpy:2010 Not really into all the god /religon thing but this came from a deep place still trying to understand it ......