Rai - Hello Poetry

Rai Nov 2010

Poison

I am your addiction
Your poison
Your hell fire
I am the reason
You cry in the night

I asked you for peace
But you just dont stop talking
I think i am mad
Please leave me alone

You drive me to distraction

Stories of love
That im not even thinking
Wishe's for a life that is not my own
Distant shores beckon
Will i explore them
You know that i wont
So please leave me alone

I am your drug
I won't release you
What would you be
If i left you alone

cpy:2010

Rai Nov 2010

12

12 poems in a day

and my addiction

is past my denial stage

oh my when I finish

this will be 13

There is no hope

for I like it this way

My hands hurt from pumping the keys on the board

but hey every addiction has its price

And my head ever spins

In conversations I am becoming more poetic

My whole outlook

The snow glistens on the ground

When most people are worrying about the cold

I see exagerated beauty or ugliness

I go shopping to ground myself

I do job searches on line

hey I'm back here again

I thought facebook was addictive

but then i came here

and it became clear

In this poetry asylum I'll

probably rot

but happily i wish to mention

Rai Nov 2010

I love the way

I love the way my hair feels when i submerge myself under water

I love the way you smell when i nestle into the side of your neck

So sweet but musky all the same

I love the way you turn me down when I'm being nothing but a spoilt brat

I love that

I love that your the only man that has ever stood their ground

I love that you wouldnt let anyone hurt me and youd rather walk out

on a friend than see me be put down

I needed that

I love that when your around I feel safe in your embrace

I love that closeness that i cherish beyond all else

I love how you never say good bye but see u soon

Goodbye is too final you said and we are forever

So forever we will stay

I love you for not being perfect

because i like the madness it makes you special

It makes you unique

It makes you mine

I love how you give me flowers you said you got them off the

grave of some ole man; I really didnt mind

I love how you whisper in my ear before I fall into sleep

I also love when you turn my face to yours and call me your beloved

You women , your everything ,your wife*

**I love how my mind plays tricks on me while I write these lines

For a moment I even thought you were real

Rai Nov 2010

HELP!

GOD HELP ME*

As the water covers my face and swollows up my breath

As the softness of the pillow placed over my face

starves me of life giving oxygen*

HELP ME

why didnt you come

As he held my face down

it hurts god .....it hurts!

HELP

Me when I stumble

Left with so much pain

I fall unto myself forgetting who I am

ME

I dont want to feel this pain

WHY COULDN'T YOU HELP ME GOD

then i wouldnt be sitting here with tears

running down my sorry face

ME

it's me god remember

DO YOU REMEMBER?

why the hell is it you never answer me?

And as the life runs from my body

God held my face to the ground

he held me as the water swollowed my breath

And he placed the pillow over my face

SO WHY DID HE MAKE ME BEG FOR LIFE ?

why did he try to **** me inside?

well i'm tellin you

I kicked

I screamed

And I never for a moment believed in you

WHY?

*I don't think I need to answer that

cpy:2010 Not really into all the god /religon thing but this came from a deep place still trying to understand it ......

Rai Nov 2010

Creature

Sinking teeth

Flesh so smooth upon my touch

creature of the night

beckon forth and love

my wounded heart

blood drips slowly

quickly the fear is replaced

by the wanting

of tyne flesh

I shall now feed

and be whole once more

Rai Nov 2010

Little rai

Silently
Silently she wonders through your life
She smiles
Its rai
Our own little piece of sunshine
She spreads the sun where ever she goes
Looking for corners of darkness
that need her warming glow
here comes little rai
She always makes them smile
but deep inside rai's soul
where no one goes
and no one see's
there are nightmares
and demon's
that want to crucify her
They want to quench her light
So she will have to give up the fight
Little rai battles on
knowing
she will never let them win
As the moon hides the sun
so will rai hide the night
smile
it's little rai
and if it happens to rain
Little rai will shine through
and a rainbow will appear
to brighten up your day

I will warm your mind and soul and make you smile ...... from little rai

Rai Nov 2010

Breathe

This silence holds me and
I learn to breathe
and as night falls
the lake
Glistens in all its majestic glory
I see the ripples on the water
fish rise  gasping for air
And as this silence holds me
I learn to breathe