i blocked your number
this is what i'd send you:

i don't want to let this go but theres not somewhere you can meet me. i have loved you and tried to support you, since the day i met you, but i am still not your number one. and second is not the same. i know you think you aren't doing much to me and you don't think this is a big deal, i am sorry that i fell in love that night we first met. i didn't meant to fall in love. i didn't know i'd get so hurt and this would be so hard. i didn't want to fall in love. you're manipulative and you somehow got me to be everything you needed. i let you shove me around. i let you break me, i thought i was already broken and i thought you knew that but you didn't care. you did not care. and you never will. you promised you'd be there to pick the pieces up and you weren't. you never will care.
i just keep saying this and maybe i will believe it but i keep clinging on to the moments when you cried in my arms and when you pulled me off the ground and wouldn't let me be gone. i just cling to these like stairway railings and i cling so ******* hard the blood can't get to my fingers.
i am so sick of all of these people talking and sick of hanging on to you but its time i move on. i need to move on.
you will never meet anyone that cared like i did. i will never love anybody like i loved you. (love you)

i walked the line for you
i find it very easy to be persuaded
i found myself alone at the end of each day
i was a fool for you
i am a fool for you
why did i let you do this to me
you turned me black and blue
and shades of purple
my heart can't beat anymore

everyone i do right does me wrong
i can't put anybody above you but you turned me
black and blue
i watched you rip me to shreds
you never cared
why don't you give a **** about me
i watched myself between your hands
how is it i never noticed that you were slowly
killing me
you turned me black and blue
i hate that i still want you
and i hate that i'd still let you hurt me

why i started loving you:
your eyes
your smile
your ability to make me smile
what i see behind your eyes
the way you carry yourself
(even though most people hate that)
how you don't care what anyone else things
how real you are
how you listened to me when i was sad
you complimented me
you wanted me
you tell me you love me when you're drunk
you let me cry
you let me be angry
you don't mind my craziness

why i need to stop loving you:
you don't want me like want you
i am not prepared to be hurt again
my heart already hurts
you say you're emotionally damaged
i will lose myself if i try to fix you

but i want to fix you

you make me happier than anyone has before but why does it hurt

as the smile on your face fell, i fell with it

some say there is beauty in the pain
i don't think you know how i have changed all my plans
theres so much time left for me