I'm drinking by myself
I don't know if i'm your girlfriend or not
you don't know I love you
holding the neck of the bottle
as tight as I clench your hand
I'm drinking by myself
I wish you were here

you tell me you don't remember what you said to me the other night
i thought i was the drunk one
i thought i could see it in your eyes
please tell me you love me tonight

i saw you for the first time in months
you played with my hair
you told me you missed me
the look in your eyes was as beautiful as the moon that night
i can still feel your hand on my thigh
you made my heart skip a beat
i felt so free
i havent smiled in so long
we sang in the car
it was as if nothing happened
you got mad at me for trying to take my life
i have never felt so important
**** the way you make me feel
you say you're no good
you say you can't do a relationship
but you're in love with me
my heart is breaking
i have never felt so useless

you told me you loved me again
i was the drunk one
i almost killed myself that night
you followed me home
to make sure i came back

bipolar disorder
i never know what kind of mood i am going to be in
i miss you and i want you by my side
but i like feeling alone
i hate you
why aren't you by my side

she'll never know you like i know you