i can't catch my breath when i'm away from you and my mind keeps going back to your lips, i can't think straight. i wonder if you can't sleep at night and i wonder what it's like to be next to you every moment of the day. maybe i'm nervous about leaving for school in a few months and i know i get choked up but i can't stop thinking about the "stay" and the "please don't leave me" but what's going to happen when i'm hours away? i'm terrified of goodbyes. the first time i saw you i knew i'd love you forever and i knew it'd hurt. i knew you'd wait for me to let you know i arrived home safely and i knew you'd care. i get hung up on the moments you trace my knee cap and the moments when you leave traces of kisses around my neck. sometimes i wonder why you're looking at me and my hair on the back of my neck stands up when you do. your voice against my hair makes me feel safe and i can't stand knowing i have to leave this place soon. but here i am back to wondering why the ******* fell for me in the first place. the hair on the back of my neck is still standing and a trail of goosebumps goes down my spine.

you lit a fire inside my eyes
it's only been four months but i feel like i've known you forever
you save me
it's only been four months but you're already my hero
you kiss me
it's been four months and i haven't stopped wanting your kiss
you can't put out the fire
even if you tried, i wouldn't let you
you lit a fire inside of me and i love you so much it burns

11/27


look what you've done to me
i'm tied down
all my life
i've been on my own
but i'm yours now
and there's no other place i'd rather go
no other place that would compare
to the way you make me feel
baby, look
you've got me in the palm of your hands
i can tell this love is real
look what you've done
you smile and it changes my entire world
i'm yours
and you better be mine

what makes my heart skip a beat:
your eyes
the way you say my name
when you run your hands through your hair
your cute giggle when i tickle you
the way you trace my knuckles when we hold hands
how you say "i'm sorry"

i never knew that i'd one day be hooked on your eyes. the feeling i get leaves me intoxicated and breathless. god, i don't know how someone could be so beautiful. i'd do anything to feel this pain for my entire life. i love you so ******* much it hurts me. it hurts me to know that i lay in the palm of your hand, pondering whether or not you love me back.
you say you do and i think i believe you when you say it but there is always that fear. the fear of not being enough. i want to be enough and more. i want you to love me like i love you. these thoughts haven't stopped since july 4th when i saw you for the first time.
your ******* eyes, i could drown in them.

I thought I didn't believe in God until I met him. This boy, with bright blue eyes. I thought I didn't believe in God because of everything He had put me through. But now, all I can do is thank God for bringing him into my life.