I'm wearing your sweatshirt to sleep again
I'm under my own roof and it makes me feel more at home

I've bitten my nails until they bleed
But when I hold your hand, everything seems to heal

I can't undo the tangles in my hair
But you trace your fingers down my arm and every one of my thoughts becomes unwinded and untangled before you

when your hands cup my chin
or the small of my back

and you're looking into my eyes

do you see the shattered pieces of my heart
do you see the never ending dark hallways in the back of my head

being 18 will not last
and i know relationships hardly do in this situation
(even if we want them to)
because we will "grow up" and leave
and everyone will tell us it'd be stupid to not head in opposite directions
but ******* i like heading into your arms
and
what is so wrong with that

I am no longer afraid to die.

Day 81927181 of my heart being broken and I still wonder if your chest ever aches at the sound of my name the same way mine does whenever I hear yours.

There's a lump in my throat and an ache in my chest.

I've never felt so insignificant in my life
Like just another leaf on a tree
Another dog in the park
Another cloud in the sky

I'll never know what you felt when I told you I loved you

I'll never ******* know

i watched the measuring tape around my waist get smaller and smaller
all because of the words you let leave your tongue,
& the brutality you showed me

  i let the blade kiss my skin
all because of the cold shoulder you gave me,
the "I'm proud of you" I never got

  i said goodbye to all of my friends
all because I believed everything you told me
because I let myself think
that I really wasn't worth anything