I guess its the moon that makes me think of you, all the emotion in that tiny circle in the sky, it fills me with happiness because i picture you and a smile creeps upon my face and maybe its because im crazy or a little insane but i swear baby i cant get enough of you, your eyes light up like fireflies in the dead of night and your smile grows bigger everytime we kiss and your laugh is beyond beautiful with its cute little giggle. Your heart is the size of the sun filled with laughter and love. I just cant get enough of you and all you make me feel. Even when its the intimate moments we laugh and play around though sometimes you stare into my eyes and all i can do is stare back and admire you, you the person i love is looking at me with wide eyes and a smirk. But i know you love me too, and thats why you remind me of the moon.

How could you love a girl with a broken smile and a black heart. How could you say you love me when I'm crying on your collar bone. Why do you love me, when I have sad eyes and stories that dont end. You say it like your gasping for breath, that it took everything you had and shot it into thin air, waiting for me to grab your love and say it back. I promise you im trying to catch it, but my eyes have gotten blurry and my head has started to fell fuzzy. Somehow it fades, the tears have rolled down my checks falling on the curve of my nose as your hand glides along my face wiping away the pain. Then I say it, the words blurt out of my mouth like something in my mouth tasted like bile and i had to spit the words out. But I mean it, I love you. With my heart on my sleeve and my lungs unable to breathe. I love you with all the pain in my chest and the butterflies in the pit of my stomach.

You ****** with my head
Turning my arms into strings
My mind into nothing
Im just a puppet with no brain
No heart, no soul
You took away the only thing I was able to control
You took away my youth, my confidence, my strength
You held me by my arms and told me not to move
Even with tears streaming down my face staining the sheets and blood leaving my body
You wouldn't stop
You made me into a puppet
With no will power to move on my own
Just waiting for you to pull another string
And let you **** me

I crave you,
Your like an addiction
Like a pack of cigarettes
A small blue pill
A shot of Alcohol
You've crawled your way under my skin
You've dug a hole deep into my heart
Making it ache when your not touching me
Making it break when your not holding me
You've made my lungs squeeze for air when you grab my hair
You've made my insides burst with fire when you say my name
You've made my blood race through my body like an ocean wave
I crave you
Your like an addiction

I know thats my face
Those are my hands
They move when I move
Her eyes blink when I feel mine shut
I know that is my body, bird like and thin
That is my nose that hooks at the end
Those are my clothes I remember putting on before bed
My eyes are darkening and the walls are starting to cave in
Breathing is harder, worse than smoking a cigarette
My body is numb
I cant tell if this is reality
I hear my voice saying
Come back
Im escaping, leaving, running away from all the fears I am forced to face
I feel my knees grow weak
And my body sinks
To the floor and my cheeks grow wet
With makeup covered tears
I don't remember wanting to cry
Reality is no more
A dream is all I can see
With dandelions
And trees
With bare feet
And a cool breeze
The floor becomes softer and all I do is sink
Like a dead weight in the sea
An anchor tied around my ankles
Letting ocean water drown my sorrows
But this cant be true
Im standing in the bathroom
With wet cheeks
Trembling hands
And clothes I put on before bed

Maybe its the way your lips curl into a smile that reach your eyes when I say your name. It could be the way your laugh comes deep from your stomach, or the way your hair twists into my fingers. The way your hands fits perfectly in mine, completely intertwined. Maybe its the way you kiss me, where the kiss is so hard and emotional you can't seem to get enough. It could be the way your hand caresses my face, or the way you cradle my body where we are almost one. Maybe its the way you giggle when I touch you there, that pure smile of excitement.

I don't know how you did it, but I can't get your face out of my head.

I'm afraid of not being enough
Of laughing to loudly at corny jokes
Of reeking to much of the cigarettes I smoke

I'm afraid of not smiling as much
Of crying and black tears staining your sheets
Of giving you everything

I'm afraid of a broken heart
Of never being able to put back the pieces
Of lying helpless on your chest unable to speak cause my lungs have finally collapsed

I'm afraid of that spark I feel when your lips are on mine
Of that sudden electricity running through my spine
Of all the butterflies in my stomach turning to spiders

I'm afraid of loving you
But I'm tired of being afraid