I can feel the heat rising hot and bitter in my chest
Jealousy, you're unwelcome
Choose to love, Choose to love.
I love you.

Be kind, do the right thing, be thoughtful
Love, love, love, love
Speak the truth
In love

Anger. Breathe. Love.
I am owed nothing.
I am hungry for love
But you do not owe it to me.

If I love, enough, will I be loved?
When will I be loved?

What can I do? What choices do I have?
Just love. Love you. Love them.

Pain. Cry. Breathe. Love.

So we can fly, to the sea,
   in the summer
      in the dark

And we can dance, to my home,
   I can show, you the park

Where I sat, under the moon
   and the dew, touched my skin

And I cried, all my lonely
But you warm me. You're my kin.

The night is on us
Not quietly tonight
The wind is singing to me.

I felt some peace today
A different kind of numb
I'll sit with it and rest in this calm.

I didn't feel Father's day
The way I often do
It was just there.

I don't care
That you don't love me
Dad.

I wish my poetry was better
I wish I could articulate my soul to you
For a moment could you absorb me
Could you hear your name in my heartbeat

My fingers remember yours, and miss them
They are lonely with me.
Lonely is the deadly ache
I fight it. But Lonely wants to **** me.

My soul is a labyrinth
Twisted joy and lonely, intense love for, the world
that doesn't much care for me
Please explore with me

A date inside the Labyrinth
Are you afraid of me?
I'm afraid
And I live here every day.

It's terrifyingly *****
And beautiful too
There's a golden thread of you
keeping me alive. Today.

She makes me want to write poetry better, when before, my ramblings were enough for me. But nothing's ever going to be enough for me again. I don't have enough to describe her to you, how she's so ordinary yet so extraordinary. How is it that she comforts me, yet she comforts me from the very ache she placed in my chest? I wanna talk about her to everyone, but they'll label this and that terrifies me, because this can't be labelled. If I can't describe this in so many paragraphs, why must people try to box it with one or two words?

Terrifying, she fills me with all kinds of terror. What if I'm too much for her? Yet each time I show her a little more of my dark soul, she kisses my mouth, and kisses it, too.

How does she get away with kissing my mouth anyway? I love her so ******* much. She lets me run my fingers through her hair and feel her scalp beneath my fingers like it's nothing, maybe it is nothing to her. And when I hold her from behind she turns her head and nuzzles into me and oh, it makes me adore her even more. And I tell her I adore her, so she sends me all those cute stickers with love hearts.

She says 'I love you' back. How does she love me?

She presses her head to mine and lets me gaze into those cornflower blue eyes, and our souls collide, my heart can't take this.

I find my lips kiss her neck and she doesn't seem to mind.

The butterflies she likes so much have taken up residence in my guts.

I want to protect her, and I want her to protect me, all at once.

I wanna ask her what this means, but I'm afraid of the answers. None of the answers are gonna get me closer to her.

I will always be insatiable.

You were absent today
I didn't notice til 6pm
ish
You've been fading out
Visiting less often
I won't miss you
***** Itch

You've been persistent