If anyone asks me what i want right now

besides the obvious answer being YOU,

all i want is to write poetry and

see your face in my head as the words come to me.

it's not hard to believe that you are

the sole subject of my prose.

As if writing about you could heal my soul

i hate that you have this hold on me

i never knew how weak i really was.

For as often as i see you,

you might as well be on Jupiter instead of the

other side of town

There is still a storm in the distance
you’re the thunder in my mind
thoughts of falling asleep at your side
you’ve made me who I am today
without our pasts who would we be?
There is still a storm in the distance
your eyes glisten in my mind
thoughts of me waking up in your heart
I wish I could be in your every thought
how selfish I am today
There is still a storm in the distance
dance with me I wish I could say
hold me forever is all I want
there is always a price to pay
with every blessing lurks a curse
There is still a storm in the distance
thoughts of what could have been haunt all my actions
what will I do when we eventually fall apart
feelings of falling in love tend to scar
none less deep than ones already there
I wanna forget
I wanna move on
but I can’t
There is still a storm in the distance
threatening to take away every breath
every hope
every dream
threatening to take you
do you even care?
There is still a storm in the distance
hold me forever in your arms
warmth and life fades away every second
There is still a storm in the distance
hold me in your heart forever
dying inside isn’t a pleasant feeling
There is still a storm in the distance
do you even really care?

Eventually I'll leave
Miraculously breath escapes lungs
Eventually this body will rot
Hopefully with an essence of  pure heaven
Eventually...

Ttthee fiirstttt timmee
i was alone with le tele
i got excited
as a kid of 8
i knew tv was fun

my dad
went to work early morning time
i grabbed up my
favorite blanky
and sat down in its presence

the icy cold remote in
my handddddddddddddddddddddddddd,

blood guts and big *****
tv knows about everything
STD results and Wars on Terror
my favorite cartoons
McDonalds has a new sandwich
i am not the father
Lindsay's back in jail
stage collapse smushes ***** couple
scientists report, transfat is a-okay
President's schtupping an intern
moonbase has a ******* epidemic
i think i want to grow up to be a juicehead
45 dead in pakistani drone strike
i figure,
they'll just re-spawn or
I'll wish them back
when I collect the dragonballs

anthrax in the mail and
feet on the beaches
eyes in the sky
eyes from under

bomb threat at my school
mom had me
stay home
and
munch on some chips
watch the tv