How can moving on be so hard? Even when you weren’t really together with him? His words were sweet, his eyes were dreamy and I just looove everything about him. He never promised me anything but why did my heart put on such hopes since the beginning?

there's just so much love for him. even when the world is telling me
not to love him.

but how can i not love him?
i don't want to go through that pain again,
the pain of getting over a guy.

i am patiently waiting,
for the day when i got to meet him.

i am patiently waiting,
for the day i get to see his face,
and ask him questions.

i am patiently waiting,
for the day i get to hear his voice,
his laughs and his sarcasms,
for they are all lovely.

i am constantly hoping,
that i can be forever patient,
for him.

Yesterday,
I met him.

Yesterday,
I looked at him.

Yesterday,
I fell right back in love.

I still think of you,
I still do.

I still have you in my heart,
I think.
I know I do.

I still love you.
I do.

What is this black thing that’s eating me?
I feel bad and heavy all the time.

Why is this black thing in me?
What does it want?

How long is it staying?
Cause I’d rather die than letting it stay.

Words are powerful indeed.
Some make you dwell in them,
said in the past but they echo till now.

I'm here,
but I don't feel comfortable.

I was there,
but I can't seem to be content at all.

I tried to be there for both,
but I just don't know my worth.

God,
I ask of You to protect this feeling.
I am only feeling this because You are allowing me to.
Hence, protect him. Protect the both of us.
I love him.