how do you know
the right thing to say
when i do not even know
what i want to hear
when i am panicked
you know how to help
when i am sad
you know how to be there
when i am on top of the world
you are there with me
i keep asking myself
how do you know what i need
and i think it is because
you know me

she would not
say goodbye
instead
she said
see you soon
and for that
i will never be
more grateful

have you ever
loved so much
that you wait
by the phone
not because you
are nervous
just because
you can't wait
to hear from them
i do not get angry
when she doesn't
reply quickly
i get excited
because i still
get to hear from
her

i am going to miss
the car alarm
that is your
heartbeat
when i lay
my head
on your chest

when you left
i cried
but somehow
when i returned home
i smiled
i felt reassured
you know me
you get me
you understand me
thank you
for being the first person
to read my poetry
and the last person
to make me realize
i am worth something
you mean the world to me
you gave me a home
when i never thought
i would feel at home again
you gave me your hand
and helped me find mine
you were
the first person
to read my poetry
and the last person
i will ever really
say goodbye to

i am terrible
at saying goodbye
and i don't think
it is because
i am scared of leaving
no
i am scared of changing
i know we will never
be the same
this summer
changed us
and i don't know
what comes after
goodbye

sometimes
it hurts so bad to close a chapter to your life that was so good
because there is the constant fear lingering in my mind
that maybe the next chapter won’t be as good
because when in my life will I meet another person like these people
because
sometimes
it’s hard to believe
that I could get that lucky twice