Julia

Julia Jan 2013

*

& I give & I give
& I give & I give
& I give & I give
& I give & I give
& I give & I give
& I give & I give

Julia Jan 2013

Whines

Expectations
What am I deserving of?
          Am I not a mere human
amusing the divine
          with my feeble attempts
to scavenge scraps
          of what I call control over
my life? I am an ant
          who wants to change the
ways of the
                                           w                   i                    n                    *d

Julia Jan 2013

Gone

My eyes are welling up
the tightness in my chest
strikes pangs of restlessness

violent & shaking I'm trying to drown you,
I'm trying to **** every single ounce of desire for you
for what I once had, I once had you all in cupped hands
& like sand you poured out from between my fingers
gaps I could not close, & nothing to do but watch you
leave me for years
        s                     l                      i                       p
away.

Julia Jan 2013

Where Did I Go?

Sometimes I
                            p
                                o                                      all that I have, all of my energy
                                  u                            & time, maybe even some of my love
                                    r
                                                         into
                             **nothing

Julia Jan 2013

Man-made

a victim of post-modern culture
where people feel that
whatever they think is
right or feels right,
is right

Julia Jan 2013

Ignorance

I've made graphs,
charts & labels
I've taken tests,
quizzes, solved
equations with
functions & facts
& limits & rules
& statistics
I've put commas
where commas
go, I've used
all of the laws
of punctuation

But I still don't know why it is that I am *me.

Julia Dec 2012

Celibate

I want
to be
touched,
too.