I miss it all .
when life was with no stress .
boys didn't matter .
when I was excited to go home and play outside when my homework was done .


it's all different now .
I wake up everyday just hoping to get my days over with .
now I stress over a boy who hurt, lied, betrayed me .
but I never seem to be able to let go .
I can't let go of the past .
I reminisce every night thinking what could have been .
would life have been different if I chose my life a different way ?