You only realize what you had until it's gone.
But I think... what is worse is the sound of their rejection like a knife in your jugular.
Remove the blade and watch yourself bleed out.
How are you supposed to remove a knife and feel nothing?
You ache and yet you let it happen because it is what they want.
I spent days denying the obvious.

I guess soft spots make for better bullet wounds.

It didn't take you long to pull the trigger.