Dec 2014
she's... intimidated by the boy and his friends over there
the boy with the pink hair
the boy with women's boots and the three female friends surrounding him
she thinks it's sad how a boy can have three female friends and she can't even have one
he... wonders why that girl is staring
actually, he knows why but he's trying not to think about it
it's making him uncomfortable
and she looks really shy and scared
and he doesn't know what to do
that's one thing they still have in common.
she's confused.
why does a boy have pink hair and female friends?
that's not how boys are supposed to act
they're supposed to be big and strong and masculine and protective and boys
why is he acting like a girl?
he's angry.
who the hell cares anymore?
this is past news, old papers in the fireplace
get with the times, new york is burning
stop focusing on one persons heart
she's upset.
who the hell does that?
she feels so uncomfortable
don't focus but pay attention
how can he break the rules?
she can't run the race and he just tore through the finish line
he doesn't like men
so it was a mystery to him why he was one
she watched him swiftly evade boys and dodge male customers at work
this baffled her
boys can't be afraid?
when he had a panic attack on the stairs she scorned him
boys don't cry
boys don't cry
boys don't cry
and then he couldn't stop
bubblegum prince cries pastel blood tears from his wrists when he's sad
she gets an A- on a test and she panics
shakes and has to be sent home
tries to smash coca cola antiques on her head and dissolves because
"she's too weak"
he fails a test
"my mom can't figure out how to get on aspen so i don't care"
and she hates boys like that
boys who don't care about their education and what they have and their friends
and he hates girls like that
girls who don't know the full story and assume on a strand of hair when he can say the same thing back to her
but he doesn't hate her
but she doesn't hate him
she's tired of living
of trudging through each swamp of a day
where her skin is too thick to cut and her skull is too hard to crack
he's tired of dying
of knowing his death and beginning
where his skin is paper thin and swallowing bullets among other things is a constant occurrence in his dreams
bubblegum prince used to be the quiet girl in town
so much can change over the years
the boy with the pink hair
the boy with women's boots and the three female friends surrounding him
she thinks it's sad how a boy can have three female friends and she can't even have one
he... wonders why that girl is staring
actually, he knows why but he's trying not to think about it
it's making him uncomfortable
and she looks really shy and scared
and he doesn't know what to do
that's one thing they still have in common.
she's confused.
why does a boy have pink hair and female friends?
that's not how boys are supposed to act
they're supposed to be big and strong and masculine and protective and boys
why is he acting like a girl?
he's angry.
who the hell cares anymore?
this is past news, old papers in the fireplace
get with the times, new york is burning
stop focusing on one persons heart
she's upset.
who the hell does that?
she feels so uncomfortable
don't focus but pay attention
how can he break the rules?
she can't run the race and he just tore through the finish line
he doesn't like men
so it was a mystery to him why he was one
she watched him swiftly evade boys and dodge male customers at work
this baffled her
boys can't be afraid?
when he had a panic attack on the stairs she scorned him
boys don't cry
boys don't cry
boys don't cry
and then he couldn't stop
bubblegum prince cries pastel blood tears from his wrists when he's sad
she gets an A- on a test and she panics
shakes and has to be sent home
tries to smash coca cola antiques on her head and dissolves because
"she's too weak"
he fails a test
"my mom can't figure out how to get on aspen so i don't care"
and she hates boys like that
boys who don't care about their education and what they have and their friends
and he hates girls like that
girls who don't know the full story and assume on a strand of hair when he can say the same thing back to her
but he doesn't hate her
but she doesn't hate him
she's tired of living
of trudging through each swamp of a day
where her skin is too thick to cut and her skull is too hard to crack
he's tired of dying
of knowing his death and beginning
where his skin is paper thin and swallowing bullets among other things is a constant occurrence in his dreams
bubblegum prince used to be the quiet girl in town
so much can change over the years
