the intent completing my purpose. A bud on a stem capitulated to a bee on a wing , challenges flew from me. Experienced in fertilizing analogy, I intended, but obviously wilted under the pressure and blamed it on the sun or lack of rain or pigs eating my roots away. When I neutered myself, verbally, darkness understood and drew me in: oils were painted imaged in unrealistic views expressionist caricatures. Experimental images all failed to resurrect the benefits I had splurged. I only meant to live.