I used to be afraid of you never coming back,
Now I fear that you will.
Not because I can't stand your presence
Or because you're no longer my desire,
But because I'm fully captivated by you.
Every part of me.

You're my illness.
Weakness.
Pain.
Suffering.
Insecurities.
All the bad in me.

I was just an empty lost soul.
You consumed me.
But when you packed your bags you took that with you.
And as much as I crave your existence in my life,
I know that I couldn't handle your return.
Without you I'm everything.