how can you miss someone that is literally in the next room as you?
how can you want to be with someone so much so that you cancel all plans just to clear the way if they want to hang out
it's so hard to understand
because my brain is telling me one thing and my heart keeps contradicting it
and to think i used to always go with my gut
i don't know
i'm thinking of the ways to tell you we should define this
but then again,
whenever that happens,
i get nothing
and neither do you
we are stuck in the never ending paradox of never being merely platonic
and i'm just confused
because my life was missing this piece and i always insisted
it was you
then why
does this feel so off
and maybe i'm thinking about that fact that we have never been fully on
the timing never seems to work out
and maybe it's possible that this time
it works