i haven't picked up the pen in weeks. i just haven't felt up to writing, do you really want to know how i feel? go on, take a guess. you can even ask! "are you still using drugs to escape reality?" "are you falling back into self- destructive habits?" no, no way! not me! i'm all smiles, why could i ever be upset? i'm only alone in every definition of the word, it's not like i've been searching everyday for an escape. i'm just fine, thanks for asking.