Writing has always been my personal escape,
and place that I bring the clearest thoughts,
driven by personal emotions.

From the moment you reached out,
I was afraid to meet the future,
because I didn't know how to respond.

I thought it would be best to be more distant,
to be in the darkness,
in isolation of writing.

I think we have hurt each other enough,
but I know you know I've always looked out for you,
Especially when you least expected.

No details are needed,
and past is in the past,
While I rather not get into personal lives.

Just understand I knew more than I let out,
and I didn't care what others said about you,
because that level of disrespect from others was unwarranted.

To be honest I hated them for their actions,
Their stupid jealousy of fellow woman,
and their relentless cruelty spread like disease.

Of all people only you have the power to shut me,
With your silence I am voiceless,
and I've tried to put a jigsaw in it's place!

What if I told you have the power to make me disappear,
all you have to do is tell me,
and everything will be completely deleted!

I've already deleted all my poems once,
and I'll do it out of respect,
Completely dissolve everything I cherish.

I won't even ask why,
No more explanation needed,
It will just be understood.

I always hoped we would be friends in the end,
Just like most friends I kept in Minnesota,
A reminder even in a desolate ice land there can be warmth.

You have but to ask,
and your wish will be given,
because I want you to be happy!

If me leaving gives joy,
why must I take away personal happiness?
Either we are or aren't friends.

Lets keep it simple!