you were always beautiful
from the time you linked together
the stars into new constellations
and the moment you broke
yourself apart just to mimic them
some would’ve called it insane,
others art
the time you inhaled angel dust
in the car parking lot
and kissed the first boy
who came close to you
and had some kind of warmth
I remember seeing you in
the school restrooms swallowing
pills you said helped
all your problems
you never confided in me
I tried not to take it to heart
I felt like no one could ever
understand the lovely way
you used to fall apart
some days you disappeared
and never replied to me
other nights I would wake up
to you calling me
I would find you on the street
like a letter that never
made it it to it’s destination
a mysterious manifestation of
a stranger’s thoughts
your beauty never came
with understanding
I was always left in
the dark