every time I close my eyes I see your face and how crushed you were
every time I close my eyes I remember how shocked I was to see the tears running down your face
every time I close my eyes I replay those moments in my head
every time I close my eyes I feel the pain you felt as it radiated off you

I don't ever think I'll forget the way I felt when I hugged you and the way your voice sounded when you spoke. I'll never forget how, just for a moment, I was held, in your eyes, over your best friend.  I will never forget the way your reached out to me when I left. That kind of pain is crippling and I understand.

seeing you cry shook me and I'm not entirely stable yet

{KAH}