Why do I feel like I'm holding you back
You deserve someone better
Someone who will make you happier
And cause you less stress

I make your life hell
Your friends left you
Your family hates your decisions
Because of me

I don't want to leave you
It's the last thing I want
But I don't want to be
The thing that destroys you

The war is raging
Between my mind and my heart
And I don't know who will win
Who will defeat the other

But I hate seeing you upset
And I know you don't want to tell me
But I need you to understand
That this break is killing me

I'm already run down
You are the fuel
That I use every morning
Every day

When I'm bored
I know I can message you to laugh
When I'm upset
I know my biggest supporter is right behind me

You asked for a break
And I am willing to give it to you
I want you to be happy
I want you to figure everything out

But it's never what I wanted
I feel like breaks are the beginning to the end
And I don't want this to end
Not yet

So what can we do?
We set a 3 day period of no talking
No messaging
Nothing

And that's how I feel
Empty
Alone
I feel as if I've lost the best part of me

I don't know how to feel
I want to be happy
I want to cry
I look in the mirror and see red puffy skin from the tears that have poured out my eyes

I don't know how long I'll last
But I'm doing this for you
I hope you're happy though
Because that's all I've ever wanted