This game I can't deal with it again When is it going to sink in that I am not something to win I am not a reward for good behaviour I don't have a ******* tick sheet I don't give a **** about what you have and haven't done, but don't you dare look at me as an object to be 'won'
I miss you The you who kissed my forehead and told me I was too gorgeous and intelligent to cry or be sad, I miss you staring in my face and looking truly glad that I could be with you That I could love you.
I miss the you who wasn't suddenly a lad.
You know who I am. You know everything, before now you said you didn't give a **** about stuff I wore, or if I swore or was 'unladylike' because that was me I thought you fell in love with me
But apparently even your love can feel un-sturdy, I feel like you've lured me in for a **** You're eating me like a last meal, when you have so many more years to give, You turning on me is like a shiv through the ribs
There's nothing left that I can give.
I've played the conditional game before It burnt me til I could not trust Then the lock was hit with lust, and then youΒ Β were the one to find a key.
Please Please Please
I don't like this new guy It's you I want to see
I swear that I am still **me
This is really rough as a poem, but I just needed these thoughts to go somewhere.