How long actually will it take
to get over that picture of you
lying motionless
like it's really not you
I wish it's just a nightmare
which I could wake up from
I called and run to everywhere
I didn't know how long
Like everything was too slow
to see you breathe again
I hoped that machine wouldn't hurt you
but I knew you were in pain
It was so hard to see
like all around was unclear
When everything seemed  blurry
I wish you would wake up and shed my tears
It's the hardest time ever
when they asked us to decide
It's the hardest thing ever
I had done in my life
I don't know how long it will take
to get over that memory
All the smiles I've tried to make
only turn to tears eventually

30 Oct 2014
still missing you