There is so much left unsaid on my part
and I'd like to think
there are things you have left unsaid
because you are scared
or don't know how to bring them up

but that worries me
because you aren't usually scared
and there probably isn't anything at all
and you've probably said all that you've wanted to say

you're not a thinker like I am
you don't keep your feelings bottled up
you've been completely honest with me
probably
and I haven't always opened up to you like I'd like to
and maybe that's okay
and maybe it's not
and it probably isn't okay

because if it were
I wouldn't have this longing
this lingering
to spill my guts out to you
for you to clean up
for you to lend a shoulder
for me to cry on
for you to pick me up
when I've fallen

and when I fell
you didn't notice
you didn't seem to care
because she was in your focus
and I was in your peripherals