I’ve never been good at writing eulogies
and I forbid myself to say Adieu
It’s always been see you later, Alligator
or after while, Crocodile
It’s nothing so blunt as Goodbye
Because Goodbye is not open ended
and goodbye does not leave room for next time
and goodbye is finite
and I live for infinite moments
stretched out beyond our galaxies
for forever to kiss in the palm of it’s hand

And you ruined my infinity
**** inconvenient horse
Not only did you say goodbye
kiss my old sweatshirt until it was covered in dirt
filthy my face with your nuzzling antics
but you said, mom, I don’t wanna go
and on two broken legs,
you followed me around
and pleaded, mom, I can do it
I just need some time

**** it, horse, don’t you understand
I cannot give you more time
I cannot let your agony stretch into eternity

I can kiss your head so many times
that I forget what I taste like
and remember only you

I can breath in your scent so many times
that I can no longer smell the air around me
but only your sweet stench

And I can hold on to memories so long
until they crowd my vision
and I can see nothing else

But I can only say goodbye once
And you knew this, so you said goodbye
enough times for the both of us

I have never been good at writing eulogies
and I hate saying Adieu
but Summer, I will bend the rules today
just to say I love you
and
Goodbye.