I wish I could see your face again, watch it crinkle as you laugh at something I said, relish in the witnessing of your eyes settling on mine and making me feel perfect, so perfect that I require myself to look away, and remember, you never actually loved me.

2. I wish I smell the strength you’ve always exuded, The fresh laundered sheets, mixed with the sweat of your brow that always left me faint in the knees, knowing it was that smell that sent me to heaven every time you came near, so near that I had to remind myself, you never actually loved me.

3. I wish her head fits as perfectly in the crook of your neck as mine did, because she deserves to experience the feelings I did, all including that painstaking moment where she realizes, you never actually loved me.