The first time in my life, I start turning the lens back into the dreams. Point the telescope a full 180 away from the moon, so the moon can see a **** good closeup of the craters on my face. I go to sleep asking for it.
My dearest demons, tear me apart. I am ready to die. I have done everything I could...
And here you come: traipsing down the stairway to heaven, stepping extra hard on the creaky ones.
I think it reminds you of the way I used to whine for you.
To you. My dear. MY dear. Help me God, I whisper into your ear as you sleep, Hoping you would wake up in my dreams and save me, How the hell could a person ever feel so ******* weak.
A bitter branch, that wanted to be a tree trunk. That tried to become enormous. That only got cut down in the end.
That's how I feel. Not what I am. Part of the poem, not of the slam. Separate worlds inside one room. Wanting to capture the flower in bloom.
Enormous tree, watered regularly by the gardening company hired by the CEO of the real-estate company.
The only company I really have in this lonely lake of scheduled sprinklers are gardeners giving me much more than thanks.
They cut my branches. My unsightly twigs are mulched. I share my tears with them. They take a lunch break. We're going pretty steady. Day in. Day out. Day in. Day out. Tick tock. Lub Lub. Goodnight. Help-