I sit amongst the crowds, listen in to their instigating alluring words, Exhaust myself with the false pretense of social-comfort And think about death. As it has always been and how it will always be- More potent than human interest, temptation, enticement or fulfillment. In the depths of these crowds I surround myself with The culture of the unconscious. Nothing has ever mattered but the collected cognizance of The fact that no human being has the internal ability to become immortal- And nobody who belongs to the crowds worries about that. As, To be comfortably existent means to be uninformed about your own Insignificance. When I am aware of my own body I am more afraid than when I am not. I watch myself from a blackening screen, as I destroy what I was born into until it becomes A habit instilled within both perspectives. I let the crowds ruin me with glances and words and drunken love That they will not remember. I exist as a vessel, and let the pain of my future determine the pain of My present. I seek to hide within the dark of a night like this that has experienced my absence and enjoyed it but, Their glances make me feel so present...
..I can only hide within myself by pretending that I am outside of myself.. Watching from a blackening screen...