my arms have begun to feel like the rails on a staircase that have been painted over one too many times, swollen and begging to chip – you sunk your teeth
into my flesh like dull pocket knife blades, but it was not a love bite. you never loved me enough. I was
still a child, sprawled on a sofa, spread open, when you asked if you could paint me – a rubeneqsue silhouette that knew too few years, an anomaly, damning every man with my figure or something. (*******, lifebait, ******* until it ruins you)
it sounded as if it hurt you to see me, I believed you were going to coat my skin in *** and blood instead of pouring it on the paper.
you said everything reminded you of my shape. you rolled your car window down one day, and it was rounded at the top – you
imagined it as my *** grinding down onto your ****.
you cried as you thought this, your daughter in the backseat, and fantasized about cutting all the beauty out of me. you small man, you coward
I knew I had to do the bleeding for you but eventually grew tired of patching my open wrists with your dried spit.