Oct 2014
It's the moment where she has to hold back tears.
Bam, bam, the sound of her heart against her ribs as they confirm her fears.
Phone in hand, soft words whispered so easily destroying her heart.
She knew this was comin from the start.
She wasn't ready, not yet!
She dropped the phone, and she knew it was fake, a joke; bet!
"I'm sorry, but grandpa is dead..."
Her heart was beating so loud she wasn't sure she heard what she said.
She started to breathe faster, pulling on clothes to go see for herself.
She was so shocked she left all the memories on a shelf.
There he was..lying perfectly still in the bed of his choice.
She was in to much pain to open her mouth and use her voice.
They dressed him, and she stood frozen in fear.
She didn't even shed a tear.
Frozen in fear, the 12 year old girl walked back outside in the cold night.
She stood there not sure if she could handle this fight.
She stayed silent for days.
Then it was time for the funeral, and her heart and mind a maze.
She got there and he was in his casket, not moving, she knew it was real.
Sharp pains of sadness were all she could feel.
She stood there unable to breathe, unable to move, only able to cry.
She longed to feel someone hold her, but all the did was tell her he had to die.
Why though, why did she have to watch as he lay in pain..
She wondered if it was driving him insane...
What was your last thought daddy, was it of me?
Was it of God, who you were goin to see?
Were you in pain when I left you there to die?
I'm sorry, i didn't know it was time to say goodbye.
She writes these lines and the tears are ready to fall..
She has no one to go to, no one to call..
After the funeral, she watched him get lowered into the ground.
She was feeling as though she had drowned..
The tears were falling fast and free.
No one knew the pain growing inside from those little words, just three.
Tears still fall from her eyes.
It has been almost four years and she can't accept everyone dies.
She grew up buildin walls to save herself from feeling the same kind of pain.
She, no one knows, but she is me, and the pain is driving me insane.
I left him all alone on his last night here.
He was all alone cause i was frozen in fear.
I'm sorry for what happened that night..
It was the beginning of a losing fight.
Bam, bam, the sound of her heart against her ribs as they confirm her fears.
Phone in hand, soft words whispered so easily destroying her heart.
She knew this was comin from the start.
She wasn't ready, not yet!
She dropped the phone, and she knew it was fake, a joke; bet!
"I'm sorry, but grandpa is dead..."
Her heart was beating so loud she wasn't sure she heard what she said.
She started to breathe faster, pulling on clothes to go see for herself.
She was so shocked she left all the memories on a shelf.
There he was..lying perfectly still in the bed of his choice.
She was in to much pain to open her mouth and use her voice.
They dressed him, and she stood frozen in fear.
She didn't even shed a tear.
Frozen in fear, the 12 year old girl walked back outside in the cold night.
She stood there not sure if she could handle this fight.
She stayed silent for days.
Then it was time for the funeral, and her heart and mind a maze.
She got there and he was in his casket, not moving, she knew it was real.
Sharp pains of sadness were all she could feel.
She stood there unable to breathe, unable to move, only able to cry.
She longed to feel someone hold her, but all the did was tell her he had to die.
Why though, why did she have to watch as he lay in pain..
She wondered if it was driving him insane...
What was your last thought daddy, was it of me?
Was it of God, who you were goin to see?
Were you in pain when I left you there to die?
I'm sorry, i didn't know it was time to say goodbye.
She writes these lines and the tears are ready to fall..
She has no one to go to, no one to call..
After the funeral, she watched him get lowered into the ground.
She was feeling as though she had drowned..
The tears were falling fast and free.
No one knew the pain growing inside from those little words, just three.
Tears still fall from her eyes.
It has been almost four years and she can't accept everyone dies.
She grew up buildin walls to save herself from feeling the same kind of pain.
She, no one knows, but she is me, and the pain is driving me insane.
I left him all alone on his last night here.
He was all alone cause i was frozen in fear.
I'm sorry for what happened that night..
It was the beginning of a losing fight.
