Lights go out
I lie on my back
Covers still cold
Room's pitch black
My thoughts become my own
Whete life's complications can't intrude
I plug In my music
I'm in one of those moods
A thousand thoughts run
through my mind
going back over memories
chasing parts of me I can't find
I run scenarios in my head
of stuff I know won't happen
but how I'd like things to go instead
Emotion locked in songs
And though some I wish I could I can't forget
I reopen the wound with the lyrics but it aches so beautifully with regret I don't really want to let go
Secretly I like this pain
Because it's almost like I take the past back
Like standing in the rain
I over think it all
Then brush aside the mess
Because I'm too tired to sleep
And it kinda starts to hurt less
I toss and turn under the sheets
Names and flashbacks echo off my thoughts
There's always someone my mind can't shake
Tying my sanity in knots
At last the darkness overtakes me
I fade out to something surreal left unscarred
This is me alone
Where I let down my guard