i’m sorry i step away
when you get too close to me.
the truth is,
i am a lot of work to love.
there will be nights when i will cry and cry and cry
and there will be nothing you can do.
there will be times when i’ll fall on my knees
begging God for forgiveness
and the only thing you can do is
let me be alone,
but i will love you for it.

and on nights you are curled up in bed
staring at the wall, facing demons
that i don’t know the name for -
just tell me what to do, darling,
and i will do it.
when you don’t know how to get up in the morning
when the world seems like too much to face
i will be there for you,
whether that means holding your hand
making you a cup of coffee
or just letting you be,
i will do it.

so, we are two people with a couple of rough edges,
shoving and fighting and kicking and scratching and praying
through it all
but at the end of the day i know i can collapse into your arms, exhausted
and we will lie there, breathing hard,
a beautiful mess of bodies
with too much hope and not enough time.

all i really need is someone
to walk this journey with me.
thank you for every day when you choose to be that someone.